So, i took my nclex jan 28, 2013.. after praying so hard, fasted, and all that.
I graduated from nursing school dec, 2012. I took 3 days off after school, and started studying. Going to the library mon-fri. 10am -6pm. studying, aswering questions. i was dedicated to pass the exam ONCE. ALL of my classmates passed it once with only 2 weeks of studying, even the ones in class, i least expect to pass, PASSED IT the first time.. I keep putting my faith in God, speaking 75 questions, and 6 SATA.. the day of the exam, i couldnt sleep, tossed and tossed and my exam was at 2pm. Woke up. 9am, showed, review a lil, i was ready for this exam. drove to the test center, 2 hrs prior, cuz i wanted to get it over with. BAM, it was 2p,. did the nclex tutorials, and exam started with #1: SATA.. then on,on, on.. I reached #74, it asked me for a break, knowing i only had 1 questions left, man,was it going to stop.. i had 8 SATA already.. man, the test kept going..78..90..100..120..140..I lost count of SATA,, started freaking out, crying.. brain stop working.. cant focus anymore..( I am not the usual type that will sit for a test for a long period of time)..#180, test is still going on,, ok so i said if it reached 190, it will stop.. no, it didnt.. 200, 210,220.. at this time, i figuered, i was pick to do all the 265 questions.. i took my time, and ran out of time at #230..TIME EXPIRED.. had up to 30SATA, everything you could think of, meds calc, pharms, ez questions, sata,everything.. i am thinking well the more i keep seeing SATA, or prioritization, i am passing.. I was the last to finish at 8pm..(2pm-8pm).oh.. while i was taking the test at #210, it asked me for a break, i said yes. went to the restroom, dont know what to do, stated crying, and was having massive HA..(i guess cuz i was fasting, waiting on God ON THE day of my exam). EXAM OVA.. long 20mins driving.. praying, speaking God's words, crying, almost hit a car cuz i dont know how to feel.. Got home. did the pearson vue trick, though i had passed when i saw a pop-up, but it was becuz, i didnt complete the box i was suppose to enter my school code.. anyhow, retried the pearson vue trick, and went to all the way to CC. man, did that HA came rushing down, shaking, i though i was going to DIE. what will i tell my parents, How could God have dissapointed me. I was going into shock.. and up till now.. I did the trick so many times believing God for a miracle, nope. I failed by seeing the CC page.. I do not even want to see my result, check the BON website, nope, my name is not there.. My parents are waiting for the 48 hrs period result to confirm.. I feel like moving in with my fiance, cuz i dont know how to live in my parents house with fussing in my ear.. I wanted to stop believing in God, I FEEL REJECTED after all his Promises. before my nclex, i fasted FB, MOVIES, food so that God could hear me. After failing, i open up fb to see how many of my classmates had passed.. well I FAILED according to pearson vue trick.. I studied saunders, HURST, PDA, back to back.. I dont know where to start from, i block people on my phone from calling me and asking me ( where is the mouth ti say i Failed). I felt like a piece of **** after studying so hard.. I guess this time, register for the NSCBN questions, and do questions and questions. I dont have money for Kaplan. not working, and i am broke..hurst??? i want my money back.. To anyone who failed, I am sorry cuz (crying*****) i dont know how to encourage you cuz i am not encouraged at the moment. thru out the whole day of my exam, i didnt eat nothing or drink anything even water for 24 hrs.. (dry fasting). I dont know how my parents will c me after 48 hrs of seeing my result. I want to move out to my fiance and retake it there but i do not think my parents will accept.. I am HOPELESS, dont know where to move from HERE... crying....
