I have been a nurse for almost 5 years. I have only worked night shift. I like the night shift as it is calmer but I have bounced from 6 different areas in those 5 years. Every day before I work I a get so depressed to the point I almost cry. I take care of a disable husband, 3 kids, 3 dogs and my cat. I am the only driver in the home in an area where you need a car to get anywhere. Taking everyone to appointments, groceries, doctors, you name it I have to do it, is all up to me to arrange & follow through. It is so bad my kids really don't have the opportunities to participate in school activities, sports, etc.
I don't think I have found my niche. I have applied all over to get into a home based nursing such as insurance or even an office job, but I don't even get a phone call. I think I need something on a more normal schedule such as 9-5 M-F, with no holidays or weekends (maybe occasional weekends). I don't know what else to do. I already have taken a 2 week FMLA at the beginning of the year while I finished my BSN (graduated May 2012). I really do not want to go on any medications. I want to know if anyone else feels like this and if anyone has any kind of advise or insight into a solution? Any ideas or suggestions on how to get through this is greatly appreciated.
By the way, my dream life was to be a stay at home mom & take care of the house & family. I never wanted to be a career woman. I know I do feel some resentment toward my husband's situation. But there is no changing that.