Just an update...I've now worked on the floor a few full days and I completely LOVE it. The yucky parts aren't so bad as I thought they would be. It's just like changing a baby's diaper except the person is standing upright or lying down and the butt is a little bigger. I can handle the smell! I even got poop on my leg and it didn't phase me. I felt like superwoman.
I feel like the things I do for these people that they cannot do themselves actually means something. I know I'm all new and sappy but I've never had a job in my life that really meant something. It's kind of neat.
I get so many thank yous and kisses on the cheek. No one could ever say this job is thankless. I also love bringing my world in to them - telling them about the weather today, the outrageous price of gas, the cost of a loaf of bread, and the recent price hike for a gallon of milk. These things may seem silly and trivial but to someone who was a homemaker all of her life and in charge of weekly shopping back when bread was a nickel and milk was a dime this is freaky! I was talking with a lady who doesn't speak and right after I told her gas was $2.15 today she let out a "WOW!" It nearly scared me to death but then I was so happy because she really could hear me! Her eyes always seemed to know what was going on but I never knew for sure if she was hearing me.
So no worries about me. Right now my only concern is passing the CNA clinical test.
One slip and I'm sunk. *gulp*
Thank you all so much for the encouragement.
It really really helped.