Ok, so the last few weeks have been hard, to say the least!!! Is it just me who feels like there is a phenomenon in life that says the harder your try, the more crud gets dumped on your head? I just feel like bad things (out of my control) are happening to me while I'm struggling to keep my head above water
. Mentally I realize, "this too shall pass", but jeez:smackingf, what do you do in the meantime when it's raining bad luck all around? My, oh so anticipated and excited beginning of nursing school this year began with me getting sick as a dog the weekend before the first class started, which was diagnosed as pneumonia two days later. OK.....not an auspicious start, but doable. Crappy, but doable. School has gone ok, but then BAM!!! A month ago I unexpectedly found a large half dollar sized abcess on my left breast. OMG?? What is this?? I go to doc who has no clue but prescribes an antibiotic....scary, but doable. Two weeks ago I get sick as a dog with a head cold of some sort.....brain fuzzy, continuous snotty nose, face hurts SO BAD in the sinus areas....sucks to be me because I'm still a mommy with mommy responsibilities, and school doesn't slow down just because my brain is malfunctioning at the moment. Ok, so my grades drop cause I cant think, study, function for about a week (but it's alright because i had room to drop a little. Get over that....then Friday and Saturday of this past week I start having spells of incapacitating weakness where I'd have to lay down 40min to an hour before feeling better. I'd get up for a while only to have to lay down again....finally went to the ER on Saturday where they got a BP on me of 199/70 (I'd actually been on an upswing at that point feeling a little better). Got an EKG, blood work up and a referal to my primary, started feeling "normal" on Monday. Yesterday my 5 year old son starts complaining of a headache (he's never complained of a headache) which continued up until he feel asleep, even with motrin. He woke me up at 0100 crying inconsolably that his head hurt so bad, I held him gave motrin and laid beside him, the next thing I know he's retching and throwing up all over me (Eewww!! But it's ok cause my baby is in pain), after vomiting his headache subsides and he falls asleep....thank you Lord!! Only to be woken at 0500 with the same scenario, he wakes up crying, head hurts so bad.....so I freak and take him to ER where he continues wailing, where just before the doc arrives, he throws up again and his headache disappears. Doc has no clue, gave us prednisone. I'm still scared because we have no known reason for the intense headaches (he just now came and told me his head is starting to hurt again). WHY, oh, WHY??? Does life suck sometimes? I don't know
!!! What I do know, is that I'm extremely grateful to have a place like allnurses, where I can vent to people I know have weathered the same storm. Thanks for letting me rant.