To give you a little background on what happned yesterday: in church as the children were being released for childrens church and I was heading to the door with my two children, there was an elderly gentleman who seemed as if something was wrong and his granddaughter was trying to talk to him and it was clear she was upset. As I got to the door in the back, she was crying and calling "grandpa" because he was unresponsive. When I returned, the EMS were there and took him away. It appeared he had a mini stroke or something.
So here I am supposed to begin nursing school
in the fall and what did I do, not what I thought I should be doing. I didn't rush over there to see if I could offer some help, to try to comfort him or anything like that not even when I returned from the taking the kids. So as church continued on, I had this feeling come over me about me being able to be a nurse. No I am not trained yet, but it's not even that, it's the fact that I did not have this urge to get over to him to see if I could help. Other people did, but not me. What kind of future nurse would be this way?
Honestly if he needed CPR, I don't think I could have done it.
So an already doubting thomas here who has been unsure about this career choice is even more unsure.
Since then I have been analyzing my feelings about everything and I question why I chose to change careers in the first place. Things like working every other weekend, every other holiday, possibly being overworked, etc. etc.
Has anyone ever felt this way and then once starting school, felt differently and more sure of choosing this career? Could this have a sign that I need not attend school for this and give up my seat for another candidate? Could this be just an inexperienced person feeling inadequate?
Social work was my second choice and it is looking more appealing to me now.