New here, so glad found a site where some of the issues of nursing school
can be discussed! I have a serious problem and just need to vent.
My clinical instructor and I are not getting along, there's a huge age difference, I'm an older woman (the oldest in my class), and he's a much younger man, nursing less than 5 years (and yes now instructing). We do not communicate with each other and have had many many misunderstandings and he has completely misjudged me as a person. As I'm 10 years plus older than him, I believe he is having a hard time understanding where I'm coming from, and I believe, I intimidate him, not the other way around. Unfortunately it seems to me that he has evaluated me on our personality differences and not my clinical nursing skills. To make it worse, I've been banned from from my unit because I am ill(flu/lower resp. infection) and the unit primarily deals with acute patients just released from ICU. Although I've argued with the school that my illness is NOT fault, they don't seem to care and have put me off the unit for an entire week! Eventhough I have straight A's in all other classes and did very well in last clinical , this does not matter. Subsequently it is up to the clinical instructor to determine whether or not we can afford to miss the time and still pass the clinical component. Today I was officially informed by him he does not know if he can pass me, eventhough there are 100 hours of clinical left. He says it is unfortunate that I am sick but that it isn't his fault. If I fail I will be put behind a whole year, as you need to pass each clinical to advance to the next one. I have no idea what I am going to do if I fail. When I ask him what skills I'm lacking in, he hasn't been able to address this question, he just starts to gulp and get red in the face and says that this isn't the issue.But I push back and say it is the issue because our skills are what we are being evaluated on. I can't believe that my entire nursing career is in the hands of this early 20 something instructor, barely out of school himself. Has anyone any advice for me. I'm going to start documenting every conversation I've had with him and every patient I've had and any issues that were failed to be addressed. Additionally, interestingly enough, I read in my evaluation criteria that notices of performance must be in writing and he did not put anything down on paper, this was all done verbally, so I'm not sure what weight this conversation holds without the paper. Anyhow ,any help or words of advice, encouragement, whatever would be SOooo darned appreciated!!