When you say that you cannot stop thinking about nursing, what is it that you are thinking about specifically?
What is it about nursing that appeals to you?
Do you think that you could get over your aversion to touching patients? This is a very real issue because you WILL be touching patients during clinical and during the early years of your nursing career. After that you may be able to go into some sort of administrative position but there is no way to get through NS w/o having to touch people and deal with "gross" situations.
Let me give you two examples of what I had to deal with during clinicals.
I was in the ER and the filthiest homeless person I have ever seen was brought in. He was dead drunk and smelled to high heaven. He was combative and before we could do anything with him he hopped off the stretcher defecated and urinated on himself. I along with a tech and one of my fellow classmates had to strip him down right in the ER and wash him before putting a gown on him and getting him back onto the stretcher. There was poop everywhere and when I pulled his jeans down (which were filled with nasty poop) he decided that was the perfect time to urinate on the floor.
All the while he was pooping and peeing on everything he was also having ETOH induced hallucinations and was howling and baying at goodness knows what. We also had to work fast because he had been given ativan and haloperidol so he was due to pass out shortly.
Another fun time was when I got to dress a stinky foot that had pus draining out of the second toe. The nurse was like "How are you going to assess the drainage when you are holding that foot so far away? You gotta get close" she says as she milks it and pus oozes out.
Those are only two of my experiences as a NS during clinicals. There are also poop, poop, and more poop stories (I will spare you the lower GI bleed poop story).
I have also worked as a CNA and I cannot tell you the things that I have had to see or deal with working in the hospital and LTC. I think I have seen and dealt with just about every nasty thing that the human body can throw at a person.
Maybe you want to work in health care but maybe nursing is not for you.
There are other jobs in health care that are just as important as nursing (I know this is blasphemy) and some of them don't require dealing with as much touching and dealing with gross things as nurses do.
Please, no one flame me. I am happy to be a NS and I will be very proud to claim the title nurse once I graduate but lets be real...we deal with some nasty stuff everyday, it's a part of the job.