I am not currently working so I can focus on school and the children. It is really hard for me to work anyway because my DH is a manager and has to pretty much be available 24/7. But our money is sooooooo tight, seems we are just getting further behind.
I've been so depressed I am having a hard time studying. All I can keep thinking about is that if I were an RN already I could do an extra shift, make $300-400 and things would be cool. The next 19 months are going to be the longest of my life..I swear.
My DH is wanting to move to a bigger city if things don't get better so he can get a better job, but then I'd have to quit school because we wouldn't have anyone to watch kids while I'm in school. I just can't quit school..I can't...I am too smart to go thru life broke! But how do I hang on while things are so tight while I'm in school?
It's sooo hard to sacrifice short term for long term. I have to be awake in less than 5 hours for my clinical day and I can't even sleep I am so stressed out. So now I get to be sleepy at clinical/lab which just affects my mood even worse. I get severely irritable on less than 7 hours sleep.
I wish I could just take out a big fat student loan to pay off bills. Unfortunately, I go to a small school that doesn't offer federal loans. I can't get private loans because I don't work and my DH has crappy credit.
Right now I just can't see the forest for the trees