At the end of my rope...hate nursing. - page 2
Hey all, I am a senior nursing student and I am in my last semester of classes and I will graduate in April. Everything has been going okay in school so far, and I am doing well, I just feel that nursing is not what I expected... Read More
- 0Oct 17, '12 by DebanamRNI hated nursing school, hated clinicals, hated working after school, hated life in general. Nursing school is like pregnancy - by the end you are done with it and want to scream "when will the suffering end?" Well, it does. And like pregnancy, you get a gift when it is over - not a baby but a career full of possibilities. You sound exhausted. Quit one of the jobs if possible. It is too much to do school and two jobs. Hang in - nursing is full of possibilities and when you find your niche you will know it. I'm glad I stuck it out. I have a good job and own my own home. On the days when work is hell I try to hold onto all that nursing has given me. And some days, it ain't easy!
- 1Oct 17, '12 by wildlaurelYou don't say you hate nursing or caring for patients...you hate the hours, the place, the people...You will most likely not find your dream job right out of school, but you might find one that is a little more compatible with your lifestyle in terms of hours and working conditions. As long as you don't "hate" caring for patients - I think it's the environment/situation more than the career. The other thing to keep in mind, many people feel depressed and tired when they first work night shift - especially when they're trying to balance a day life as well. This might be part of what you're experiencing right now. Good luck with everything!
- 0Oct 17, '12 by bradleauI worked in several hospitals, some nursing homes, and did home health and hospice. I did not know anything about nursing or the actual work load until I graduated from school and got my papers. The work load is huge. I went home with such physical pain I was in tears. Fibromyligia it turns out was plaguing me. 12 hr shifts are rough. Keeping the same wake and sleep schedule is a must.
I ran across a hospital that had EVERYONE on a 3 AM to 3 PM and 3 PM to 3 AM schedule. I shudder to think of that work schedule. All of mine have been 11 PM to 7 AM or 7 PM to 7 AM schedule. Yes you will be tired. Working with people is hard. You no longer can be the person you really are. One innocent comment can get you fired. All it takes is a patient or family complaining. This happens in all kinds of work environments.
I would NOT give up at this stage of your studies. Try jobs at different hospitals, clinics, home visits. I held jobs over the years that nearly gave me ulcers. HATED going to work. *This was an ER job. The job that I had taking care of minor health issues and injurys for a big company was the BEST.
- 1Oct 17, '12 by Marshall1Working as a CNA will have little, if any effect on your being able to obtain employment as a nurse so staying at the hospital when you hate it so much doesn't make sense - especially if you don't have to work or are still working at the long term care facility. I've been in nursing a long time and was a nursing assistant while in college. Not once, ever, did my working as a NA give me the "up" on a job - even when I first graduated and would bring it up in an interview - no one cared. That being said, obviously if you work at a facility, are a good employee and become a nurse you most likely would be considered before other applicants as most places promote/hire from within. You do not have to work at a hospital as a nurse - ever. I'm not sure why or how this whole idea of working in a hospital is a "must" came about. You can go straight into other areas and it sounds like from your post long term care is not the problem, but hospital. I agree with you about the 12 hr shifts, etc. Since those came into play in nursing the overall attitude of most nurses I know have declined. I personally believe hospitals should offer a choice - as some do - part of why I am struggling with a job offer for a hospital is because I, like you, don't want to work 12 hr shifts plus the time tacked on for driving/report etc. so I am considering another avenue outside the hospital.
Others on here will disagree, but life is too short - if you hate the hospital job as much as it sounds - you need to quit - for yourself and to open a space for someone else who needs a job and may like working there.
- 3Oct 17, '12 by nyteshadeLook, this field isn't for everyone. It's ok if you don't like it. My advice: finish your program, at least have a degree to show for. Perhaps you have other interests that you'd like to pursue? Even if you wanted to change careers, at least you don't have to repeat a lot of pre-reqs like English and stuff.
- 2Oct 17, '12 by babyRN.You don't need both places. Pick one and quit the other (do you depend on the jobs for living expenses?)
I would hate it if I had to work in a nursing home. Or with adults. Period. I would have, of course, if I had to do it, and I wouldn't treat my patients any differently. But it would suck out my soul. There is so much more to nursing than all of that. I work in NICU and it's light-years away difference (and I'm in love with my profession and don't see myself quitting it anytime soon)
Remember that nursing is not just med-surg or nursing homes. The real life of nursing is not like it is in nursing school. TRUST ME. It's so different.
Keep on trucking to the finish line and best of luck.
- 1Oct 17, '12 by melaniestudentThe manager will not rush to hire someone else as long as you are so available to cover the shift. Start saying no, and he will have to start looking for replacements. Get your nursing degree. You have worked way too hard to stop now. There are literally thousands of different ways you can use your nursing degree, not just in a hospital environment. It will be so worth it!
- 0Oct 17, '12 by ~*Stargazer*~Quote from nyteshadeThis. You are so close to graduating. Finish school. Take your NCLEX. Then, re-evaluate. At least then you will have a nursing license, and there are many more ways to use it than just working in the hospital. If you still decide you'd rather do something other than nursing, at least you will have your license to fall back on and have some form of employment while you pursue the next chapter of your life, whatever that may be.Look, this field isn't for everyone. It's ok if you don't like it. My advice: finish your program, at least have a degree to show for. Perhaps you have other interests that you'd like to pursue? Even if you wanted to change careers, at least you don't have to repeat a lot of pre-reqs like English and stuff.
Good luck!Last edit by ~*Stargazer*~ on Oct 17, '12
- 0Oct 17, '12 by wish_me_luckI agree with the people who say to finish your degree and decide after that. It could be that you are just exhausted in general (the two jobs and school is a lot). I worked as a tech for a brief period and I had days that I hated it. I honestly can't say that I thought I wanted to quit nursing school, but the co-workers and such were rough. I thought clinical was fine and I thought it definitely got better as school progressed.
But, one thing that did help me is I had/have jobs that were nothing in health care and even though I love doing what I do right now (small non-nursing job), I do long for the moment where I am approved to find my first nursing job. I figured out when I was away from nursing, I longed to be back around it (granted, it was only clinical that I did and the tech job, but still miss it, nonetheless). So, my advice to you would be, stick with it and graduate. Then, find a nursing job and something on the side. Where I live and the fact that I am single, I will probably have to find a second job (part time, which I am looking for now) and it won't be a nursing job. The reason being that I hope I never burn out of nursing to the point where I would not want to do it anymore. Nursing is tough (and quite frankly, I don't know how some people have 2 nursing jobs--where I live, many people have a full time job as a nurse one place and PRN/part time nursing somewhere else. It screams "I want to get burnt out" to me).
What type of clinical(s) have you gotten to experience? Was yours all hospital? Did you have anything in psych or community or any observation in like dialysis clinic?
Like someone else said, there is pharmaceutical sales and some nurses work for insurance companies (usually you have to have experience for that). Also, if you get your Master's, there's also teaching and doing clinical for colleges.
- 2Oct 17, '12 by QuarterLife88I don't like it either; I find it a bit soul-sucking and depressing (taking care of others while ignoring our needs and loved ones, no thanks!) My big realization happened one day in clinical when my instructor was explaining a procedure/device for a patient and I realized that I could not have cared less and was bored. I'm also bored to tears hearing about my group mates patients, and wish we didn't have to share because if I cared, I would have asked.
I was shocked, because I do love medical things, but not from a nursing perspective. I am sad it took me going through nursing school to figure it out. I love science and disease, but I don't care much for the people who have them; just their disease (more like the medical model I guess). I now lie whenever I have to agree with the others that I am in school because I want to take care of others and have patient interaction: I don't. My favorite time spent was in the OR when the patient was unconscious!
In clinical I do the best I can even though I am dying on the inside wishing it was all over. I give my best even if it's like pulling teeth at this point. Patient safety is still my #1 priority.
But stick it out if you're close to the end and can bear it. I have peds right now and I swear I am always 2 sec away from running off the floor and getting in my car and saying to hell with this! lol In the end, you will have an education to fall back on if times get rough. Good luck!Last edit by QuarterLife88 on Oct 17, '12