I graduated from nursing school
at 44, and now am successful on a unit and turning 46. It's a med surg/tele floor, and I'm happy there, but definitely want to move on after my contract is up.
The problem is, I just DREAM of being in the ICU, but just feel, well, too old. The young girls just intimidate me, honestly. They are so young, smart, and full of energy. I am smart, but very busy and have a lot of responsibility at home w/ a still young family. I actually have a 7 year old special needs son who just wears the heck out of me, God love him. Also have a teenage son who always needs help with something or other.
How do I get over this? I really, really want to go on to a more professional atmosphere. The floor is fun, but there is a lot of goof off time, also -- and I just don't get into all the younger girls and all their chatter. I mean -- I'm just over it. I want to do ICU nursing, but fear my older brain won't be able to handle it. I do fine on my floor, but, honestly, things just do NOT come as fast to my middle age brain. And I just don't have endless hours at home to study up on my off days.
Has anyone else ever faced these feelings? I am a 2nd degree nurse myself. I just don't know what type of nursing really fits yet.
Jun 14, '09
No one really understands ageism but other oldies! But as an oldie myself I have to say that most of it is in our own heads - of course that little voice saying we are "too old" was put there by the overall culture, but we have the option of listening to its chanting!
I try (very hard sometimes) to replace that inner voice with one that says "look at all you have accomplished so far!" If you are working on a med-surg unit and finding " lots of goof-off time" then I say you are one bright energetic cookie - and the urge to grow confirms that. That is the voice you should heed.
Last edit by nminodob on Jun 14, '09
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