For my second year of nursing, I was hired to become an Oncology Nurse. It was not my first choice because of the multiple cancer stricken family members I have in my life right now. Eventually, I made peace with it since I needed a job and I thought it was God's way to have me a chance to honor my love ones. I had a great year meeting new co-workers and caring for the patients and meeting their families.
I was not aware of Oncology Nursing's reputation for the highest nacotic meds access and the other reputation of suspected users in Oncology Nursing. I regret to be so limited/hard-headed to only think it as chemotherapy, death & dying.
Now that I am reading allnurses since I had been audited for the lack of documentation for my controlled substance administration, I am shocked to see that the highest suspected narcotic user/diverter is that of: Oncology nurses, that really good nurse, the one with the outgoing personality, and that one that works plenty of shifts, and of course, the one with documentation issues. I am all those!
Because of my strongly moral basis for Oncology, the kind of care I deliver to patients is heart-felt and personal.
Because I come from an artistic background, I tend to be emotional and expressive.
Because I am only a sophomore nurse, I am very optimistic in the wonderful world of nursing the sick.
Because I am a new grad from 2008, I was tangibly affected by the recession that I:
perform with so much enthusiasm against all odds
worked many additional shifts like back-to-back, and extra days. I was positively enforced about this at work as well.
There will be nothing an investigator will find in my background in relation to narcotic diversion or use. It was purely mis-documentation and my self-bought drug test show negative. But I cannot let go of the thoughts that someone out there thinks that I am a possible suspect.
My director is obligated to report my forced resignation to the Board. I hear that there might be times that the director does not do so anymore. Does anybody know what happens if my director truly reports me ?
This is so very upsetting. I was almost suicidal and psychotic the day after I wanted to voluntary admit myself as a 5150; but thanks to family, my faith, and nursing knowledge, I was able to get out of that funk immediately.
I not quite sure what type of response I wish by writing a new thread but I'm just taking advantage of the support this type of community offers.