Done

We use electronic MAR and the next nurse doesn't have to care.

Thanks for your kind words. Well, surely the basis of my resignation was the lack of narcotic documentation. i brought my personality into light because the allnurses posts touching narcotic diverters mention this ( surely in lieu of drug-seekers manipulative characteristic per psychiatric nursing lessons )

Hi: well,this apparently isn't the culture. There is an ethical line that I was told they consider -- having me test for drugs right away compromises my dignity, and nursing is all about preserving human dignity. Also, I went to a federally approved drug testing clinic. Same clinic as companies and coroorations use for background checks. I will edit my post now.

This is terrible. I'm sorry for your loss and experience. I hope oncology nurses at my old workplace gets more support so that nobody will be placed at my unfortunate spot making all fearful. There are system errors that I presented to affect my documentation -hopefully, they get addressed after my terrible experience. For the past year that I worked there, most nurses didn't care to work more than our regular 24 hours/week despite opportunities, were burdened by every 2 hour pain med needs ( I think affecting the attitudes or even care ).

Hi pumpkin: oh my god you're right, I didn't say so in this post. I was sure to say it though to my mother, my husband, manager, closest friends, and HR that I do not use. The post was written this way as influenced by the other allnurses narcotic diverters postings. Some warned the readers of those characteristics I mentioned/used. i guess the personality aspect is associated to drug-seekers characteristic of being manipulative ( psych nursing stuff ). Now I'm self-analyzing why I didn't write it right away. Perhaps I Thought it was understood that I'm not guilty of diversion since my post was about how shocked i am tha my own personal descriptions matched that of the other posts. Also, stating it up front makes me feel like I am defensive; I'm under the impression that defensiveness is also a sign of guilt. Anyway, i am just plainly sad that i experienced this when my mistake was pulling it from Pyxis -giving it to patient-but not scanning it into the eLectronic MAr ( reasons of distraction, interruption etc ). It feels unfair since the worse thing is the one who scans perfectly but actually diverts. Tsk

You are kind. thank you. I remember why I solicited to this online community.

i guess this is somethign i didn't state -- my problem was that i pulled from the pyxis but didn't scan into our electronic chart and nothing else, however, hapoened more than once. but i surely administered all of those meds (patient care first -- someone mentioned conscience in here somewhere -- my nursing conscience is very proud and clear that all my cancer patient's pain had all been managed).

Thanks for your empathy. I hope so too. You remind me to be sure to seek some counseling as this surely can affect my disposition in the job search. I think it's alright to post something like this since I did not mention any specifics. Alert me if I did. Also, I'm not under investigation if that helps. if I were, what's the harmful thing in posting ( asking out of pure curiosity ) ? If me or the board or courts use it as evidence, wouldn't it be considered as inadmissible anyway ? Pls tell me what I'm missing :) thanks for replying however

yes, ihope too especially relatively new nurses.

Hi: yes you can pay for your own drug test through federally approved drug testing centers. These tests are also conducted by doctors. It costed me $200 for urine and hair test -- how humiliating personally. Per my personality, I think it has nothing to do with it either but looking around allnurse.com , it came across posts when I searched Narcotic documentation or wrongful narcotic diversion accusation. As for there being more to the story, I guess that's true. I didn't mention that this is my second documentation offense. I had gone under corrective action for the first one. I was just pleading for at least a second write-up and re-train; and a Last Chance Agreement meaning I am let go if I repeat it one more time.

I was denied by them of course. I sought another counsel just for advise because I later found but that I couldn't bring her. I was limited to my union rep who wasn't successful in fighting for me ( as I wasn't successful in fighting for myself). Fyi, I was fighting it all over over four hours.

Really take2 ? I hadn't or wasn't able to look at it this way. Thank you. Have you seen this situation before ?

Thank you LPN RHIA. You are very kind. I think that I am and I thought this was surpassing such the non-human elements of nursing. Re: Forced resignation: I guess I forgot to say that I was forced to resign because management was laying down Termination. Forced resignation was the lesser evil for myself. Yes, they presented the problem documentation to me prior to the decision but of course with not enough time for me but enough time for them, the big guys. My union representative could not win this aspect for me as well. I continually asked to review the documentations before the HR meeting but was denied. I pushed hard just to review the documentations during the HR meeting. I saw a lawyer previously but a lawyer isn't allowed in this process; but did not successfully work with my union rep. Our hopsital has had a strike last Sept. 22 and the Admin. - Union relationship is sensitive. Unfortunately, I cannot get myself out of the non-documentations except for my defense that no patient had complained to not received the pain meds or be releived from their pain. I am frustrated because more senior nurses confessed to me the worse narcotic situations they've done but got no attention from management. I called a nurse-lawyer firm that had even written nursing journals about seeking good legal representation if wrongfully accused assocated with poor documentation. This firm represents the hospital I had problems with.

For my second year of nursing, I was hired to become an Oncology Nurse. It was not my first choice because of the multiple cancer stricken family members I have in my life right now. Eventually, I made peace with it since I needed a job and I thought it was God's way to have me a chance to honor my love ones. I had a great year meeting new co-workers and caring for the patients and meeting their families. I was not aware of Oncology Nursing's reputation for the highest nacotic meds access and the other reputation of suspected users in Oncology Nursing. I regret to be so limited/hard-headed to only think it as chemotherapy, death & dying. Now that I am reading allnurses since I had been audited for the lack of documentation for my controlled substance administration, I am shocked to see that the highest suspected narcotic user/diverter is that of: Oncology nurses, that really good nurse, the one with the outgoing personality, and that one that works plenty of shifts, and of course, the one with documentation issues. I am all those! Because of my strongly moral basis for Oncology, the kind of care I deliver to patients is heart-felt and personal. Because I come from an artistic background, I tend to be emotional and expressive. Because I am only a sophomore nurse, I am very optimistic in the wonderful world of nursing the sick. Because I am a new grad from 2008, I was tangibly affected by the recession that I: perform with so much enthusiasm against all odds worked many additional shifts like back-to-back, and extra days. I was positively enforced about this at work as well. There will be nothing an investigator will find in my background in relation to narcotic diversion or use. It was purely mis-documentation and my self-bought drug test show negative. But I cannot let go of the thoughts that someone out there thinks that I am a possible suspect. My director is obligated to report my forced resignation to the Board. I hear that there might be times that the director does not do so anymore. Does anybody know what happens if my director truly reports me ? This is so very upsetting. I was almost suicidal and psychotic the day after I wanted to voluntary admit myself as a 5150; but thanks to family, my faith, and nursing knowledge, I was able to get out of that funk immediately. I not quite sure what type of response I wish by writing a new thread but I'm just taking advantage of the support this type of community offers.