I wanted to explain what happened to me... - page 19

Hey everyone... I want to thank everyone for the prayers. I'm sorry I haven't been able to explain why I needed them and what I meant by saying I was in trouble, but I have recovered enough... Read More

  1. by   greatshakes
    It must be one hell of a worry but I hope things work out for you.
  2. by   SandraJean
    I am so sorry to hear about all of this. I wish you the best. People do make mistakes, but I can tell that you are a very caring nurse that was trying to do the right thing. Take care of yourself.
  3. by   LuvsdolphinsRN
    I too had a similar incident when I came to my present job. I took the urine drug test and had a prescribed pain medication show up and "failed" the test during orientation and it got around that I flunked the test. When the prescription number checked out and the doctor confirmed the valid Rx I got my keys back the next day and to this day my employee file is flagged and unless a street drug is found I haven't had it be a problem in 6 yrs. Continue to work with your DON to restore your job, reputation and self esteem!!!
  4. by   IreneL
    Its to bad your co-worker didn't ask you what was wrong and then try to help by calling someone else in.Nothing bad lasts forever and I believe when unfortunate things happen it is usuallly to equip us to be more compassionate to someone else who is goes through similar circumstances. I will keep you in my prayers and hope that you will be made strong through this unfortunate event in your life.
  5. by   rnmom3153
    I too want to offer support and love to you. I've been through similar situations, so I understand what you're going through. It's so true that when one door closes, another opens. You ARE so kind, loving and dedicated...we need more nurses like you. Something much better is just around the corner for you! Hold your head up and try to move on after you've worked through your grief and anger. You are most definitely in my prayers.

    rnmom

    Sorry, after I read the first page I wanted to post support for you without reading further, so CONGRATULATIONS! I admire your courage and will keep you in my prayers. It hurts my heart when I see nurses hurting each other. We get so much support here!
    Last edit by rnmom3153 on Oct 8, '06 : Reason: ooops-didn't read enough
  6. by   RussA
    It is good that you are employed again. The story you shared resonnate others who had similiar experiences, and will surely help others when similiar situation confront them. In reading the posts, your situation could have been handled better by your nursing home DON. But, the result with you being dismissed was not that out of line. The DON has the responsibility to protect the residents. And provided you somewhat the benifit of the doubt by releasing you without reporting you to the BON --> which would have made you unemployable for sometime, to get the situation resolved.
    I was dismayed to hear, that you were seeking information on how to skirt the issue of your dismissal (for the interview). Not being upfront with you new employer doesn't show integrity...but then again, I may think different if I was in the same circumstance.
    Glad everything is working out for you.
  7. by   gryffnsgram
    :uhoh21: Lori,
    This was a very unfortunate set of circumstances. I think you now know that you used some poor judgement and could potentially have resulted in endangering your patients. I am concerned about your casual use of Ephedrine, knowing how it affects your health. As a nurse, you know the consequences of mixing drugs.
    I know this all sounds punitive, but now would be a good time to examine your life with brutal honesty & assess whether you have a problem with self-medicating in order to cope with life.
    I cannot help but go back to thinking: WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?
    and WHERE WAS YOUR CONCERN FOR PATIENTS?
    I really do hope this all turns out for the best...
    Take care,
    GG
  8. by   jaijaima
    I am so sorry you have been caught up in this emotionally devastating drama. I pray that you can offer all of this at God's feet and feel his peace replacing your emotional upset. I pray you regain your composure and confidence. And most of all, I pray you can send God's love out to those you feel are judging you and criticizing you. I'm praying this settles down for you quickly and you feel safe and secure, working in the job that serves you best.
  9. by   nursegamma
    Quote from rehab nurse
    Oh Lori, I figured something like this going on, hence why you didn't first say anything.

    I have talked to you before about my back issues, and we both had the same fears. I don't work as often as you for that very reason. Most days I can't move. The days I feel good enough to work, I do. But those are very few in between. I am trying to get approved for IDET, a procedure for my back besides a fusion that may help me.

    I know how humiliated you must feel. But you didn't do anything wrong, you can hold your head up because you know that you're a good nurse. If I remember right, didn't your employer know about the pain meds? Even though they know you take them on off time, I have found that when ever in the building there is a narc error, everyone thinks of me first. Why? Because I have a bad back and always hurt. Doesn't matter that I always test negative. They don't know that, they just think what they think. And it used to upset me, but I can't change they way they view me. That's why I don't work the floor anymore, I refused to touch the keys, then I don't have the suspicious eyes looking over at me when I hand out a pain pill. I just hope that those who accused me never have to be in the kind of pain I am in, cause it's horrible and you are treated like a junkie even if you have done nothing wrong.

    Hugs Lori. Let us know how your meeting turns out. Your DON hasn't said anything to you yet? You had to go all those days with no word from her? I just don't know what to say. Just know that you are among friends here, and that WE care about you. I'll keep praying that things turn out good for you. Keep us informed, ok?

    I don't know much about drug screens, but don't they consider it negative if you have a script for what appears on the screen? Or will the DON know you tested positive, but yet had a legit prescription? Can someone enlighten me? I thought if you had a prescription for whatever appears, that it's okay.

    Just FYI I am a nurse in Canada who drug tests for a large corp for pre access. The urine sample is split to allow one of the sample to go for further testing. If the person's sample comes up positive for a drug, one of the samples is sent to the lab for further testing to determine particulate of the drug. The DR contacts to establish relievence of the drug and to see if the drug is within prescription limits. Due to the extensive documentation Lori has on her script and history with her Dr, she shouldn't have any problems. Med errors happen, even with ourselves. We are all human. I hope that our sister will keep her chin up and remember to be proud of the role she plays in the lives of others.
  10. by   nursegamma
    Just FYI I am a nurse in Canada who drug tests for a large corp for pre access. The urine sample is split to allow one of the sample to go for further testing. If the person's sample comes up positive for a drug, one of the samples is sent to the lab for further testing to determine particulate of the drug. The DR contacts to establish relievence of the drug and to see if the drug is within prescription limits. Due to the extensive documentation Lori has on her script and history with her Dr, she shouldn't have any problems. Med errors happen, even with ourselves. We are all human. I hope that our sister will keep her chin up and remember to be proud of the role she plays in the lives of others.
  11. by   rags
    Lori, I am happy for you and think you have seen the blessing in disguise here. :innerconf I have spent 3 days reading all these posts (WOW!) and have to say, toward the end it felt like I was going back in time. :deadhorse About half way through, oh... say about page 14... I was going to tell you to apply at my hospital and relocate to the west because I would be absolutely honored to work with a nurse like you. :bowingpur

    Okay, I am back to my studying now. Getting ready for round three of the NCLEX! Dang... I think I just think too hard. I need to remember to "keep it simple stupid". :icon_roll

    Here is a congratulatory hug for you and the roller coaster ride you have just taken :icon_hug:

    Sorry about all the smilies, I LOVE THESE THINGS!!!
  12. by   SpaceshuttleRN
    Lori, So sorry for your circumstances. Thank you for putting the rest of us on alert who suffer from chronic back pain. We suffer because it is usually job related and because we are dedicated, we continue to work rather than collect disability. Yet, if you take medication for it, you can be made to pay dearly. Talk about a double edged sword! It is easy to see how you could have mixed up the medication being under the stress you were under and the lack of sleep. If you were not such a dedicated employee, you would have called in sick. My prayers are with you.
  13. by   twotrees2
    Quote from LoriAlabamaRN
    Hey everyone...

    I want to thank everyone for the prayers. I'm sorry I haven't been able to explain why I needed them and what I meant by saying I was in trouble, but I have recovered enough mentally to explain my last eight days of pure hell...

    I work 11p-7a as the supervisor of a nursing home. Last Sunday night I worked. Monday morning after work I went to visit my grandmother in Georgia, not intending to be gone all day. She has been diagnosed with a brain tumor and has decided to refuse any treatment- she wants to let it take her course and rejoin my grandfather who died three years ago. This is devastating to me because I am very close with her. I ended up being with her all day and getting home around 9pm. I had to be at work at 11, so I decided not to sleep since it would make me more groggy to get less than an hour of sleep than it would if I just stayed up. Despite my best efforts, I fell asleep around 9:30 and when my alarm went off at 10 I was in bad shape- disoriented and nauseous. I decided to take an ephedrine tablet and set the alarm ahead 20 minutes so that when it went off the ephedrine would be in my system. I hardly ever take it but when I do I take an Atenolol with it because it makes my BP go up and my heart race. The Atenolol was prescribed to me a year ago, but since losing almost 100 pounds my BP has been normal and I haven't had to take it regularly. Anyhow, when the alarm went off again I was still really nauseous and tired but I got ready and went to work. I felt weird- sort of detached and sluggish but I figured it was because of lack of sleep. I'd gone without sleep before so I thought I'd be fine.

    At about 3am, however, my DON showed up. I was surprised to see her, but she told me she just had paperwork to do. It seemed like she was observing me though, and soon the truth came out- someone had called her at home, woken her up and stated that I seemed impaired. After watching me, she declared probable cause and accused me of being on drugs. I was shocked and scared and denied it- I have prescription narcotics for my back ( i broke it 7 years ago and am trying to avoid surgery for as long and possible) but I never take them within 12 hours of work- never. I was made to feel like a criminal. I was brought to the local hospital and had to pee in a cup, crying all the while. I knew I felt odd and detached but all I could think was that maybe someone slipped me something. After the UA, she refused to believe me, took my keys from me and I was sent home in disgrace.

    Three days later I found the bottle of Atenolol in a totally different location than i thought. Apparently I took an Ambien instead.

    Once I figured this out, I tried to explain it to her, but since the drug test had already been sent out I still couldn't work until the results came in. It took eight days instead of three because of the positive for opiates resulting in a differentiating test. The only thing that showed up (of course) is one of my prescription narcotics (Lortab). The lady from the drug testing center called me this morning and I had to bring over my prescription bottle to confirm it. Then I had to get a letter from my doc stating that I had been his patient for four years and was still on the same strength meds and had been very responsible with my pain meds. I expect a call in the morning to go in for a meeting with my DON when she gets the report.

    Here's the kicker- everyone at work apaprently thinks I was caught stealing drugs, high at work, or drunk on the job. The worst part is that I think I am going to be fired anyway, regardless of the negative drug screen for anything except what was prescribed to me.

    I love my job, and i love being a nurse. I've worked at my job for over a year, with exemplary performance evaluations and reviews. I don't understand why I am being treated this way. I'm still scared about possibly losing my job, but at least I know that I will not lose my nursing license. Before I realized about the Ambien, I honestly was scared that someone had slipped me something and then called my DON so I would be tested. As a supervisor you always end up with certain enemies, people you have had to write up because of legitimate concerns who hold it against you. I was terrified because I did feel odd and if someone had slipped me something and I tested positive, I would have lost my license.

    I really don't want to lose my job, I love it so much. I hate that my coworkers all are assuming the worst of me. I didn't intentionally do anything wrong. I've lost seven pounds since this happened and have not been sleeping. I've cried constantly. I'm a wreck.

    I'm sorry this is so long... I just wanted to thank everyone for the support as well as warn you of what could happen... please keep me in your prayers and I will let you know if I am fired tomorrow or not...

    I love you guys...

    Lori
    very scary - i too take prescriptions for my back ( employer aware as they required all meds be listed prior to hire - i was sure id not be hired lol) anyhow - back to hand - it is scary that wed have to go through so much ( ie get docs notes etc to prove we are responsible with our meds and not drug addicts) to prove our innocence - instead of innocent until proven guilty.

    on another note had a gal - a cna - that was supposedly caught dealing drugs and was tested and the same happened to her - i was off for surgery for 2 weeks and rumours still abound by the time i got back so i reported it to my supervisor who set me straight that she was cleared by drug tests etc- so now i myself have been putting a kabosh to the rumors to anyone i hear telling about it. perhaps you have someone yo can trust that can spread the word you are NOT what they say you are. just a thought.

    also dont feel bad- you are not alone in having taken the wrong med accidentally - i too have done that and went damn cant believe i just did that - kinda funny if ya think about it - we triple check for our patients but for ourselves we just take it cause we are so used to where it is , what bottle etc , and if someone inadvetanly moves it uhoh. you are not alone on that aspect - at least one other ( me ) has been in your shoes. hugs.

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