I wanted to explain what happened to me... - page 12
Hey everyone... I want to thank everyone for the prayers. I'm sorry I haven't been able to explain why I needed them and what I meant by saying I was in trouble, but I have recovered enough... Read More
Sep 24, '06Quote from RebeccaJeanRNI don't think you've been 'flamed'. I think many have disagreed with you, some strongly. There have not been any personal attacks. There is a difference.Well...you can say THAT again! I got jumped all over way up above, and even was quoted for using words (ie. "drug addict") that I NEVER said in my post, as well as being attributed sentiments that I never expressed or would have (like someone should have to work in pain without their pain medication).
I have to say, its the fear of getting 'flamed' (a word I only just learned today from my daughter when I showed her these posts), that makes me think twice (three, four, five times?) about voicing a minority opinion on this site. I thought I had voiced my genuine concern and differing opinion in the most tactful way I could, but even then I got a really angry response, not from the OP but from another member. Geesh...
Sep 24, '06Quote from multicollinarityOK...maybe not...but what about putting in 'quotes' things I didn't say, in the heated response directly to my post?I don't think you've been 'flamed'. I think many have disagreed with you, some strongly. There have not been any personal attacks. There is a difference.
Sep 24, '06I want to apologize to Lori for the bit of bickering, however,and the off-topic posts.
Lori- my sincere hope and prayer is that you find the strength to deal with all the things before you this week- I do wish you well!
Sep 24, '06Quote from Mulansince you are speaking to me I'll respond-I was actually focusing first on your comment regarding "self-medication" By implication many on this thread seem to be considering that a "problem" OK-what's a "problem? In this discussion it's clearly a euphemism for "addiction" This is a message board,people.If you post an opinion there is going to be someone else responding with a valid argument supporting the fact that you don't know your butt from a hole in the ground. Let's not lead this thread into "locked" territory-post to the topic..Let's forget about examining the semantics of every post-READ but don't read INTO them... It's clear to me why some would assume that the OP may have a "problem" We judge others by our own experiences.Some of us won't take a med if we can help it-others are not as unwilling.It wouldn't occur to me to take a stimulant to go to work-I don't have any,don't want any,don't need any.I would have called the heck off-probably from out of town,early in the afternoon.....That's the main problem IMHO---won't take care of ourselves....WHY be a MARTYR? Call the freak OFF.....I can't feel too sorry for someone that would make such a stooopid string of bad judgements/mistakes.I hope she reads her patients MARS and medications more closely then she seems to read her own...I am sorry Lori -you are learning a valuable lesson.Since they fired you so readily you were not as in-dispensible as you thought that evening....It's a shame.I also think you need to get to a pain clinic ASAP-there are many ,many new treatments for chronic pain-and many nurses function well at work on their meds......Good LuckDid I use the word "addict"?
Sep 24, '06Quote from RebeccaJeanRNYou should not be inaccurately quoted.OK...maybe not...but what about putting in 'quotes' things I didn't say, in the heated response directly to my post?
Sep 24, '06Quote from multicollinarityNor should anyone else.You should not be inaccurately quoted.
Sep 24, '06I'm deeply sorry about your predicament. I can feel your pain. Just try and hang in there. I know it seems impossible though. Like everyone always tells me everytime I experience a major crisis, "Just try to stay positive. Everything will turn ou okay. When one door closes another one opens." Easier said than done.
I'm particularly sorry about your grandmother.
Sep 24, '06This is getting too heated here...
To Lori...you got lots of responses here. There's a lot of pages here to mull over. You are a dear friend Lori, you know that. I hope you take some time for yourself, and learn to take care of yourself from now on, since most employers won't/don't care.
To those who might think I was rude to them, I apologize. I repeatedly said during my posts that I wasn't trying to be mean or rude. Last night I was posting late, up all night since my back was absolutely killing me, despite my meds. I tried my hardest to make myself clear, but I don't think I did after all. And I really combed through the posts time after time trying to make sure I wasn't sounding rude or anything. I am truly sorry to those who maybe were offended by my posts.
Lori, you know I support you. You are my dear friend and you know where I stand. I truly hope you hold your head high, and go into Monday's interview with all you have to offer. As much as we need money to survive in this world, we aren't going to take any to our grave. Live your life for you, and not your employer from now on. Be the good nurse that you are, but don't give so much of your emotional side to your employer. They don't have your best interest at heart.
good night everyone.
Sep 24, '06Things I know or I've learned:
1. If in doubt about my ability to practice competently and safely, I will call in. I may lose my job, but I might have lost it anyway and had a whole bunch of other stuff to go with it.
2. There can be three sides to a story. None of us here know exactly what happened, including Lori. She openly states that she doesn't recall taking an Ambien.
3. I'm not lying to anybody about anything. Not a potential employer, not to call in and pose as someone else. I'm way too paranoid. The truth is easier to remember than the lies or half-truths or semi-truths or whatever that I'd have to remember, and I'm getting too old to remember anything.
4. I'd would have hired an attorney ASAP, even if I had to sell my first born on Ebay. Whatever the cost, it would have been cheaper than finding a new career or suffering a reduction in pay or lost wages. And, he may have been able to resolve this quickly and in a favorable manner, saving Lori so much emotional wear and tear.
My thoughts for what they are worth.
Good luck, Lori. I've lived long enough to know that this will be a distant and less painful memory one day.
Sep 24, '06I have not read most of what has been said here, but enough to say that I think its quite remarkable for someone to come on here and share such a personal story that could potentially help others out here in this complex world on nursing!
Sep 24, '06I didn't mean to start a debate, I'm sorry about that.
I honestly wanted to share my story not only needing some emotional support, but also because I hope the other nurses and future nurses who read what I am going through don't put their careers on the line like I did.
I am just beginning to come to terms with the consequences of my actions. I threw everything away, but my intentions were good, I swear it. We've all worked when we were exhausted, for us calling in is not as viable an option. If I could turn back time, I would have called in and just dealt with the guilt.
As for the "self-medication", the reason I haven't needed the Atenolol regularly is because I have worked hard to take better care of myself. I have lost almost 100 pounds and eat better. I don't take the Ambien often, in fact I haven't refilled it in almost four months. As for the ephedrine, that's probably the third time I've had to take it this year. I don't want anyone to have the impression that I am taking pills to go to sleep, pills to wake up, and popping narcotics in the meantime. That's not who I am. I have a pain management physician and do NOT doctor-shop.
I want to again thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for the support. I know what I did was stupid, and what happened was my fault. I hope my humiliating experience prevents someone else from going through this hell.
I will let yall know tomorrow how my interview goes. It's at 11am (central time) so if anyone happens to be reading this at about that time, could you say a little prayer for me?
Thank you again...