I became interested in nursing as a second career, since my first one in fashion was not rewarding and I wanted to help people. I started taking my prerequisites at a local community college and volunteering at the NICU at a nearby hospital. I loved volunteering at the NICU, helping the nurses with restocking their carts, helping them with the tiny neonates and helping families. When I found out that the department was hiring a CNA 2, I immediately went through the CNA 2 certification course (I was a CNA but I did not have much experience) because I wanted to learn more about working in the NICU. However, I was turned down for the job, even though the girls that HR hired did not last long and were afraid to hold and help the babies.
I was frustrated because I had been volunteering for over a year at the NICU and oversaw projects to help with the department's carts restocking. I was basically doing the NICU CNA 2 job for free. A lady from HR told me that I did not have enough experience to work as the NICU CNA. I was frustrated because I felt so used, and so I decided to quit my volunteering position to focus on gaining more experience as a CNA.
I got a position at a skilled nursing and long term care facility, where I did my CNA 1 clinical. Right away the CNA 1s were mean to me because I was a CNA 2 without as much experience as them. I had always the worst assignments and if something went wrong I was to blame. I tried helping at my coworkers when I could, like answering their call lights if they were unavailable and my residents were fine. Some of them warmed up to me, but a few still were awful.
Right away from working with adults I realized that I missed the NICU. I have a hard time caring for grown ups who purposely wrecked their bodies from drug abuse, over eating, lack of exercise, and alcoholism. There are barely any old residents there. Most of them are middle aged to semi-older (35-70 years-of-age). Since I'm new, the residents are not helpful in telling me how I can help them (and they are cognizant and able to verbalize), and they use every excuse to demean me.
Just from this experience, I realized that I don't want to work in a long term or skilled nursing facility. I miss helping the premies every day I have to work at this place. I find it harder and harder to care for the residents were are demeaning, verbally abusive, and disgustingly lazy (one lady can walk to her refrigerator in her room to get her soda, but not the commode).
Also the work environment is not good. The nursing staff is hit or miss. Some of the staff has warmed up to me, but the others are still mean. Plus there is always scheduling mishaps, which make it frustrating to know what days I'm working or not.
I'm going to nursing school
in the summer (yay!) but is my experience as a CNA foretelling me what it will be like to be a nurse. Already I've decided that I want to go into NICU nursing. Are nursing specialities with adults like this now? I've worked with parents with babies in the NICU and I feel like I can handle them better than adult patients already.
Thank you everyone for listening.