I am having a heck of time with my OB rotation.
I hate it.
I am having a very hard time focusing and even though I try to study, I am having a hard time retaining.
I just failed my OB med quiz and can take it over as many times as I need to but I MUST pass this quiz to pass the class. I seem to have developed a mental block.
I'm freaking out over clinicals and reciting my meds.
I am totally blown away by the amount of paperwork and research this class requires.
I am stressed over my late clinical times and the fact I have exams the day after clinicals.
I am becoming physically ill and am frustrated that I could pull myself through before, in spite of going through divorce, moving and a nasty clinical instructor. And now I let myself fall apart now?
I only have until July to finish but can't bear anymore.
I feel like I started this class behind already.
I have seriously considered withdrawing, taking a mental break and better preparing for when I take this class again.
That means I won't be done until, at least December.
I don't know how much longer worK will put up with my schedule.
I have kids looking forward to my July graduation.
I have family counting on me to finish.
I hate nursing (right now, anyway) but I feel I must start what I finish.
I guess I just need to vent and I am sure plenty of others have been in my situation.
I feel incompetent and stupid right now.