As someone who has suffered through depression for over three years, logic had no place in my decision to attempt suicide. All you think about is ending the suffering. The pain, the darkness, the fear of living, a future with no hope. I was just tired of living, of suffering. I looked at my knives more than once thinking if I just bleed to death, it would end. I think the only thing that stopped me on many occasions was my children and knowing at one time I was happy. But I totally understand now what drives others to end it all. I know I went through it for a reason, that I can understand others that are suffering. With help from medications and a great doctor that listened, I was able to work through issues and make it to the other side. I had several relapses, but eventually I found my way out. Others aren't as lucky. I have a great life and I thank god every day I did not go through with my thoughts.