I recently graduated and have been off of orientation for about 2 months now. I try so hard everyday to make sure I get everything done and not to forget anything. I always go over my charting at the end of the shift and look over orders, but it seems I always realize I forgot something when Im giving report or while im on the way home. This gives me extreme anxiety. It ruins my days off because I can't stop worrying about any mistakes that I made or things I forgot to do and I second guess myself about all the stuff that I did do. After my last shift I realized when I got home that my patients home medications hadn't been signed off by the physician and started. Now i'm playing the what if game and thinking of the worst possible scenario that what if nobody every starts this pts home meds and what if the patient is harmed and/or I lose my job because I forgot to follow up with home meds. Even though there are other nurses taking care of this patient and the physician is responsible for starting the home medications also, I feel like this is all going to fall on me.
I get frustrated because each shift I do the best that I can but without fail, I get home and have horrible anxiety and can't sleep. Some days are great and other times I feel like this job is making me live in fear and I can't take it. Any advice out there for how to deal with the stress and anxiety and leave work issues at work?