I am a new grad RN - got a job before I graduated on a high-acuity, fast-paced medicine floor at a top 5 (inner city) hospital, where everyone is super sick (or super MEAN).
I've got a lot of common sense and am a well-educated and emotionally mature gal for my age, so I feel like everything I'm feeling is normal and okay to feel...but...I'm really more concerned with what is happening in my mind on my time off. I'm nine weeks into my orientation and next week is my last week before I'm on my own, just to give an idea of where I am at.
I feel pretty confident in what I'm doing, I know when to get help and ask questions, and most of staff is pretty supportive. Most other nurses tell me I'm even ahead of the game and doing really well, esp. with time management. BUT, on my days/nights off, I feel like a different person now. I feel much more emotional, irritated, easily upset, all I want to do is sleep (my schedule gets really messed up on my nights off...), or sit around and sulk and drink wine. I think about work often too. It's very roller-coaster too, from "I can do better and will next time" to "I don't really care and let's just do what I can do minimally to get by before I start applying for other non-bedside/floor jobs after a year). Even on shift, I feel this way starting around 3am...coworkers, patients, everyone starts to **** me off and I dread the thought of having to give report.
ANYONE else feeling this way? I ask because I've been in the city that I'm living in alone for awhile now. My boyfriend is time zones away, and my sister and brother are as well. Not a single family member or anything here, I moved to where I am because the cost of living is cheaper and the job prospect was much more promising. I'm wondering if I should hang on for a year, or plan on maybe making a change more or less for the sake of my personal life. I have good support at my job, and I'd feel quite unethical and unprofessional if I left before 12 months. It's not even THAT bad, just...not great. Not great at all. Would love to hear some thoughts.
Really, you kind of sound loney. You don't have people that you can easily just hang out with. You have work. You have the long-distance relationships with your partner and family. But, you don't have someone to just go grab a cup of coffee (or beer) with. Downtime is important. Doing things you enjoy in your life may make your work easier to bear. I know it isn't an AN thing, but I'd suggest trying to meet people in your new city. I have been a member of Do something, Learn something, Share something, Change something - Meetup
for years. It is a way to find "meetings" of groups that share common interests (like if you like running, you can find running groups near you, or poodles, or wine and cheese). I'm sure there are other similar sites out there. My husband and I moved to a new city for his job, and we're hours from our friends and family now. It takes a while to build up a social network, but it is a lot better than going home alone all the time.
For nursing, yeah, new grads all feel pretty similar, a bit overwhelmed, overthinking everything that's been done, and patients can definitely be cranky (and their families, too). For that stuff, I like to read the vents on AN! I say "oh, i've felt that way too!"
Last edit by PolaBar on Aug 19, '12
: Reason: Wow.. that link had said just meetup.com but got added to something bigger!