Hi guys. I just kinda wanted to hear opinions on my situation from some other nurses/new grads. So, I got hired to work LDRP as a new grad. The manager seemed really cool. I actually found out later she was the interim manager, and also the educator. I started at the very end of January. At the time, the hospital was just getting ready for a site visit for magnet status. At the beginning of March, the cool educator/manager left for another job, leaving this unit with no one other than an interim manager from ambulatory surgery with no OB experience.
So, about 7 weeks into my orientation, after the original manager had left, I get my first review/meeting with the interim manager and my preceptor. They say they are not sure I have the drive for this type of work, that I only do what I'm told and no more. I tell them that I would like to do more, but I feel pretty overwhelmed just trying to take care of my patients at this point. So they say we will meet again later.
Basically, at the end of 11 weeks of orientation, they feel like I am not prepared to work in such a fast paced unit. I disagree, feeling like I never got a really good orientation, with the magnet preparations and the nurse educator leaving so soon after I started. I mean, obviously I don't have any kind of nursing experience, I am a new grad. So they want to transfer me to another unit, like med surg. This hospital doesn't have any openings, and although they own about 7 others, none of them have been very helpful so far.
I just feel like kind of a failure. I don't know, maybe nursing is not the right career for me. I guess I don't really know what I'm looking for here, just thought I'd share my crappy first job experience. So, now I'm not quite a new grad, but don't really have any experience either, and now all the May grads are applying for jobs too, so I don't know how easy it will be to find another job. Blah. Its been a bad week. Thanks for reading, let me know if you have any opinions