hica19, you just described my week
! This is my first week off orientation and I feel the SAME way. My first two days on my own weren't bad... I really can't complain, but I still felt overwhelmed! Yesterday I had four patients, one total and three "walky talkies". I work on a neuro unit so unfortunately our patients are impulsive and like to wander. So you have to have eyes in the back of your head. Anyways, I was pretty caught up, but I knew everything would happen at once: I was getting a new admission (95 yr old confused in resp. distress), my post cardiac cath patient would be back to the floor (freq. vitals, dsng checks.. .not to mention I've never had a post cardiac cath pt... I work NEURO!), and my other patient was coming back to floor from MRI... plus I had to start and IV in my other patient and hang her vanco... whew!!!
Anyways... of course, as it always does, everything happened at once! Got my post cath patient, ten minutes later got my new admit, then my mri patient came back. So I'm running around insane trying to figure out what I need to do first. Everything is important, everything needs to get done.. I was just confused on what to do first. Fortunately I have an extremely supportive team. One nurse started the IV for me and hung the vanco, the charge nurse got my new admit settled in, and I could go check on my post cath patient and make sure he was stable. So it all worked out... though I did have that deer caught in headlight look. I think its just going to take time to learn time and priority management... that's one thing they can't teach you in nursing school.
Just keep your head up... know you're not alone... I understand completely... good luck