So....I got my rejection letter at the end of June and was devastated because I qualified with my points but was put into a lottery and was not chosen. Then, I was told based on the random waiting list generated by the computer system, I had no chance of getting in. The result: temporary devastation, crying, misery and I got over it and was geared towards Plan B, which consisted of finishing off the remainder of prereq's needed for my BS, which I planned on finishing after I complete my ADN.
So for the last month, I took a vacation, got married, moved into a new house and was getting over it, I was actually happy. But then, I started missing my old house and hated how we downsized to save money and started looking for a home with hubby and it was starting to take a toll on me. I started getting a little bit upset. My new husband decides he wants to go back to school, so we might have to sacrifice things financially (fine, I support his decision, after all, it's what I am doing) and I start wishing I had just gotten accepted into the program because then, I would be done sooner, and we wouldn't be stuck worrying about finances anymore.
So the problem: Last sunday, my darling 3 year old son drops my phone on concrete. The LCD screen goes white. I argue with T-Mobile about having equipment protection which they say I cancelled (never ever did!) and can't afford a new phone right now for a few weeks. So I deal with it and can accept calls, but can't make them, can't dial.
So I have no idea if I miss a call or have a voice/text message.
I randomly (after 2 days) decide to check my voicemail and the first message is the Nursing Department at the college. They inform me that I have been accepted into the program BUT I must reply by 10 am that day (today) to get the spot. Guess what? It was already 6 pm when I get the message. Office is closed, position probably given away and I am completely devastated and depressed all over again.
I wish this thing could just all be over....either I am in or I am not. I left a message of despair on the Administrators voicemail, but I am sure that position was given away already. All I can do is wait for Monday, I am going in first thing in the morning to beg for my spot, explain my phone situation (and show them my phone) and if my spot has been given away, beg for the next spot that may open up (luckily drug test deadlines are Aug. 23rd, I live in Vegas (aka Sin City) and hopefully, this might mean a chance for me.
I just wish I was never told that I had "no chance at all" to get in for Fall, instead I was told to move on. Had they not said that, I would have seriously glued the phone to my head! I thought my chances were seriously over and now I'm dealing with madness all over again.
Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this chaos? What would you do?
Thanks everyone who has been there for me over all this time! I guess if they tell me it's over then I at least have some closure so I can move on!
Thanks everyone for all your supporting comments. I am already expecting them to turn me away tomorrow, so I am not getting my hopes up. I guess it's one of those "expect the worst, hope for the best" situations.
Thanks Laura, I was really happy about it, making scrapbooks and such, it was a good way to take my mind off my big fat rejection letter....but now, even my husband is completely upset at my chain of bad luck, so all frowns around here right now. I just need some closure of some sort, for the semester to start and to move forward.
I know I'll be okay but it's kind of like a big bully poking at me every other day on the playground. Funny how Nursing School can really take control of your life huh?
Thanks everyone so much! I am so nervous right now, I think I might have to throw up. I've gone over every scenario in my head and what I might have to say in response to what they tell me. The worst part about it all is that I am pretty sure they will tell me that the spot was given away to the next person in line, which will probably make me cry and I will have my 2 children with me who are going to have to see me cry, and I really hate crying in front of them! A part of me just doesn't even want to go, but I know I have to so I don't wonder "what if" you know?
Thanks everyone for all your supporting comments. I am already expecting them to turn me away tomorrow, so I am not getting my hopes up. I guess it's one of those "expect the worst, hope for the best" situations.
Thanks Laura, I was really happy about it, making scrapbooks and such, it was a good way to take my mind off my big fat rejection letter....but now, even my husband is completely upset at my chain of bad luck, so all frowns around here right now. I just need some closure of some sort, for the semester to start and to move forward.
I know I'll be okay but it's kind of like a big bully poking at me every other day on the playground. Funny how Nursing School can really take control of your life huh?
It does take control of your life. It is ALL I think about. If I don't get accepted, then I have to wait an entire YEAR before reapplying.
Don't worry about letting your children see you cry. It's okay, they'll see that you care about things. Children need to see that we are human and sometimes vulnerable.
OMG...saying a prayer for you right now!!! Hoping for the best!!!! Let us know as soon as you find out!
ETA: Just wanted to say that I have been thinking about you and your situation a lot over the weekend and have been praying for a good outcome for you because YOU deserve that spot.
Okay! I am back and....I'M IN!!! I'M IN!!! I'm so excited I can hardly sit still. I sat in front of the office until it opened this morning and it was worth the wait. Initially, I was told "no" but then she said "hold on" and from there, I really don't remember how or why I got in, all I heard was, "actually there is still a spot" and it was my spot!
Thank you guys so much for all your support. I can't believe I get to start NS in a few weeks, it's so weird how just a few weeks ago, thoughts of starting so soon were already gone from my mind. I am so happy, and I appreciate all your kind words and prayers, it meant so much to me to know how much support I have here, time and time again.
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Thanks everyone for all your supporting comments. I am already expecting them to turn me away tomorrow, so I am not getting my hopes up. I guess it's one of those "expect the worst, hope for the best" situations.
Thanks Laura, I was really happy about it, making scrapbooks and such, it was a good way to take my mind off my big fat rejection letter....but now, even my husband is completely upset at my chain of bad luck, so all frowns around here right now. I just need some closure of some sort, for the semester to start and to move forward.
I know I'll be okay but it's kind of like a big bully poking at me every other day on the playground. Funny how Nursing School can really take control of your life huh?