Published May 29, 2012
ldiva0808
46 Posts
I am a new nurse, unhappy with bedside nursing, unhappy with the state i am in, family is so far away and they are not the best cheerleaders, dear God knows I love them. I have lost touch with myself. Lord, I could be dating and having a life, but Im so exhausted with the inability to control my life, and that i have lost touch that I dont even do anyting with effort anymore. I have my BSN, i just need insight on what road I can carry on with my nursing, away from bedside nursing, and nursing itself if possible. I love fashion, the city life, instilling confidence in others, but I have been wearing boxy scrubs, 5 days a wk, and sweats on my day offs, I just feel like I am not living the life meant for me. I dont like this feeling, it's slowly consuming me.
cally527, RN
217 Posts
I think you need to speak with a mental health professional. Sooner rather than later.
elprup, BSN, RN
1,005 Posts
I totally hear you. Talk to someone and do what is right for you. II am depressed to....I refuse to sell my soul for any nursing position, which is making it really difficult to land a decent job and get more experience. Thankfully I have a small income without working...but I did not work my a## off getting my BSN, overcoming a chronic pain condition, an abusive husband and raise two children on my own with zero help, not to work! I hope you get to a better place. I wish Nursing was not so dysfunctional...I have yet to find it. Best wishes
feelingbetter
27 Posts
I am so sorry you are going through this.. This is a hard profession and like you I am a "newer nurse" (2 years) I have found my
"zone" doing Adult Day Health Nursing, nothing too stressful, not alot of money but.. I work regular hours, my patients/clients are the same ones every day,I get to know them well and it is gratifying.. Not a job for everyone, my point being.." there is a place in nursing for everyone." .. A very wise nurse once told me that once . Perhaps you are feeling depressed and at loose ends, nursing school is a tremendous accomplishment and now that you are no longer a student? where is my life... Look around, talk to other nurses who work in different aspects of the field. Good luck.
butterfly journey
216 Posts
Please, please, please see a mental health professional. What you are describing is how I felt when I was going through depression and I had a GREAT job at the time and couldn't see it for the depression. Some sort of therapy is in need here, whether it's talk therapy or pharmaceutical (I recommend the latter), you need it. Please see someone before you make a drastic change in your life concerning nursing. You may find that nursing is not the culprit after all. I also agree with the previous poster who said that maybe the kind of nursing you're doing is not right for you, but I think that there could be a bigger issue here. I hope that you find someone to help you through this and that you don't give up nursing before you give a mental health professional a chance. Hang in there, the "will" to do things does come back, as does your happiness. God Bless.
Summer<3
1 Post
I'm so sorry for your situation. I have just finished my first semester of nursing when i realized that a lot of what you are going thorugh is what I feel like I can relate to from what I've learned this semester. This is my fear in continuing this program...I was wondering if you regret going into nursing as a whole? You sound so miserable and I am so sorry but I feel like I can relate to you a whole lot and wonder if I could gain some knowledge from your experience. I love the city life too and my program is in a small town. My life has defitely changed and I also feels this past semester was consuming me as well. I am so close to withdrawing from the program and change my major, any advice? Sorry I can't be any help to you because I am inexperience in this but I'm just wondering, do you have other choices if you don't like what you're doing right now?
purplechicxiii, BSN, RN
429 Posts
Relax. Pray. Contemplate. You will be fine. You can eventually think of how are you going to do things the way you want them. Believe in yourself and have faith. :)
Thank you all so much for your input. hmm maybe mental assistance might help but i know God can fix alll my problems more effectively. I am working on getting my faith back judging that i lost it 3 months ago since i moved here to start working. Things had become so difficult tht I forgot to rely on him for his help and tried to fight thins my own so i am leaving it to him. to Summer
morte, LPN, LVN
7,015 Posts
Seeking mental health assistance and seeking help in your faith, is not mutually exclusive! you can pray about anything, sometimes the answer to that prayer is to use what is available to you, ie counselors etc. This would also put you in a place to eval what would be a better job fit....good luck