Hi
So I am a new nurse and I was fired from my first job after a month. My preceptor and I didn't get a long and as much as I tried to figure out ways, we clashed a lot. I didn't want to get my manager involved just yet, but by the time I felt it was necessary, it was too late. I know I can come off strong, and when I am confused about something, or felt that it was unsafe, it was easy to question my preceptor because I didn't feel comfortable. My preceptor had a few times went outside the scope of practice and that ruined my faith in them, and often times would force me to change my assessment to something that I felt was an inaccurate picture or left things out that I felt were necessary to give a bigger and more accurate picture of the patient. In addition, I felt I was scolded from checking my patient too often (who were kids btw) when the alarm would sound, and then I erred by not checking them enough and couldn't seem to find balance to them. Also, I felt I was misaccurately represented to my manager, and when I would explain what happened they would say, "that doesn't sound like so and so" and I realize that human nature tends to trust those who know in longer, but it sucked. Another instances, I had checked the a pt who needed more O2, because O2 was low, and I stimulated them by tapping on their chest ( as shown to do) and checked their mask and it didn't increase their stats so I increased the O2, but was then told I didn't assess enough before deciding to increase O2, and should have called my preceptor before doing that, when it felt that my preceptor had put me in charge of this particular patient when a friend went on lunch and did what I was instructed to. I was told I was being confrontational when I said, "I was doing what I was instructed to do to keep their sats up" too loud when my preceptor scolded me from doing that...and now I find myself without a job, and it was already hard to find a job as a new nurse, now even more difficult for being let go from my first job....I am not even sure how to recover from this or anything...