Thinking about FNP

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Hey everyone!

I am approaching a my one year anniversary of being a nurse! woo! I just don't know what to do with ALL of my VAST experience! Seriously though... I know that I want to continue to go to school. I will be finished with my BSN this summer. It was an immediate assumption that I would just continue on for my FNP or ANP. Of course, I am beginning to second guess myself. I have been working in the MICU for one year. Maybe this is why I am always second guessing.

The thing is...I know I am smart, but I feel so stupid. I am book smart. Put me in front of a book and I can read the crap out of it and tell you all about it.

Give me a doctor asking about my crashing patient's history are and I am like an infant drooling at the mouth. I eventually come around and kick it into high gear, but the adrenaline actually startles me at first.

Ugh...Don't get me wrong, I am not incompetent. I do my job and I do it well! I love my patients! They normally love me too :) I check and re check everything. I am always afraid to make mistakes, but that is because I have made TWO so far! I know we are not always so forth coming about our med-errors, but I really beat myself up over them.

I guess where I am heading with this is...IS it worth it to continue on for my FNP if all I am going to continue to do is belittle myself with all of these "What ifs"? What if I don't catch something right away. What if I don't clearly understand the contraindications for medications? What if my patient asks me a question and I can't answer it?

I want to advance my practice so bad, but I am going to be honest here: I want it so that I can provide for my fmaily. I want it so that I am not run down to the bone with bedside nursing. I want it because I like learning, I am just afraid that I won't know everything.

I just need some advice. and maybe a hug!

What will I be getting myself into? Is it worth it? Is it a high stress level job like working in an ICU? are the hours more "mom" appropriate (I work nights now and I hate it)? Will I learn all I need to know in school to be a competent NP?

I appreciate any and all of your responses!

Thanks guys :)

From what all of my NP friends have told me being a nurse and being a NP are two completely different worlds. They have also told me to go straight through, although I'm actually going to skip a semester before I apply. As far as providing for your family, it doesn't get much better than being a NP. There are SO many different types of jobs from hospitalist, to working in an office M-F, to working in a minute clinic just 3 twelve hour shifts, to...you get the picture. I say GO FOR IT! Don't stop now. You can do this. If you can survive nursing school, you can do this. Don't stop!

Specializes in Adult Internal Medicine.
I am always afraid to make mistakes, but that is because I have made TWO so far!

What if I don't clearly understand the contraindications for medications? What if my patient asks me a question and I can't answer it?

I want to advance my practice so bad, but I am going to be honest here: I want it so that I can provide for my fmaily.

Is it a high stress level job like working in an ICU?

Will I learn all I need to know in school to be a competent NP?

Being afraid of mistakes is an important thing, at both the RN and the APN level, provided it forces you to be careful and deliberate in your practice. Everyone makes mistakes; we learn from the mistakes we make and we try as avoid as many as possible. Even the best providers make errors.

There are always "what ifs". They get worse at the APN level. But I can say this: you won't always know the answer to all the questions you are asked. You have to be comfortable with that, in fact, it's dangerous not to be.

You need to do it for YOU. You can provide for your family just fine as an RN, or any other profession.

It is high stress but not in a way that is comparable to nursing (in my opinion) as the roles are too different.

Hopefully you learn the foundation of what you need to know in school: differentiation between normal and abnormal, safe prescribing, and the limitation of your own practice.

Specializes in Emergency.

There are many threads on how much experience is needed to succeed as a NP student and after as a NP, and there are probably more opinions on the subject than there are people making the opinions. The fact of the matter is it's a personal decision, that only you can determine when you are ready to tackle the schools work, and dedicate the time and effort to becoming the NP you want to be (if that is your ultimate goal).

Others have come before you with less life and nursing experience and been successful. Others have needed more experience in both regards and been successful. Both groups have failures as well. So, some questions to ask yourself would be:

Why do I want this? How badly do I want it? What are the advantages/disadvantages to waiting or doing it now? My gut tells me you have a strong desire to be a practitioner, but you are afraid that it is a big step. It is a big step, and it will take personal growth, but you will have several years of training in which to grow into your new position.

Someone once said "we don't regret what we tried to do, but what we didn't try to do", or something like that. So, if you really want it, figure out if you are ready to go to school or not. Sometimes, you need to set some intermediate goals of things you want to accomplish in the next 6 months, or a year before applying. Some might be personal growth, deeper understanding of pathophysiology, or financially paying off loans, etc. On the other hand you may determine you are ready to jump in with both feet and take on the schooling right now. Neither is a wrong decision as long as you make it with as much understanding of where you are and where you want to be.

Finally, there is no fully prepared student. At some point we all just have to jump in and go for it.

I hope you find clarity and make a decision that you are able to back 100%!

Specializes in Internal medicine/critical care/FP.

I worked as a nurse only while in school. Being a nurse won't prepare you for being an NP, except maybe with the patient communication skills, time management, and physical exams. It is two completely different worlds.

Specializes in Internal medicine/critical care/FP.

I would do it as soon as possible, since the learning curve will be steep in the beginning no matter which path you choose. I work as a hospitalist and the difference between each career is still very large. I can only imagine how different it would be working as a floor nurse and transitioning to a clinic based practice after graduation.

Thanks you all so much for your feedback! This is definitely my dream. I think while I am in between my BSN and starting for MSN I can take some time to focus and ... clarify :) Thanks for giving me encouragement!!

I was an RN for seven years before starting my FNP program. Some of my fellow students have been bedside nurses for far less time and are doing well in the program. I liked bedside, which is why I stayed.

I do think that getting bedside experience, especially in an ICU, puts you ahead on the learning curve in school. That said, I'm not sure that it's necessary in order to be a good FNP. You might want to look into any research on the topic (if it exists).

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