I am approaching a my one year anniversary of being a nurse! woo! I just don't know what to do with ALL of my VAST experience! Seriously though... I know that I want to continue to go to school. I will be finished with my BSN this summer. It was an immediate assumption that I would just continue on for my FNP or ANP. Of course, I am beginning to second guess myself. I have been working in the MICU for one year. Maybe this is why I am always second guessing.
The thing is...I know I am smart, but I feel so stupid. I am book smart. Put me in front of a book and I can read the crap out of it and tell you all about it.
Give me a doctor asking about my crashing patient's history are and I am like an infant drooling at the mouth. I eventually come around and kick it into high gear, but the adrenaline actually startles me at first.
Ugh...Don't get me wrong, I am not incompetent. I do my job and I do it well! I love my patients! They normally love me too :) I check and re check everything. I am always afraid to make mistakes, but that is because I have made TWO so far! I know we are not always so forth coming about our med-errors, but I really beat myself up over them.
I guess where I am heading with this is...IS it worth it to continue on for my FNP if all I am going to continue to do is belittle myself with all of these "What ifs"? What if I don't catch something right away. What if I don't clearly understand the contraindications for medications? What if my patient asks me a question and I can't answer it?
I want to advance my practice so bad, but I am going to be honest here: I want it so that I can provide for my fmaily. I want it so that I am not run down to the bone with bedside nursing. I want it because I like learning, I am just afraid that I won't know everything.
I just need some advice. and maybe a hug!
What will I be getting myself into? Is it worth it? Is it a high stress level job like working in an ICU? are the hours more "mom" appropriate (I work nights now and I hate it)? Will I learn all I need to know in school to be a competent NP?
I appreciate any and all of your responses!
Thanks guys :)
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I am approaching a my one year anniversary of being a nurse! woo! I just don't know what to do with ALL of my VAST experience! Seriously though... I know that I want to continue to go to school. I will be finished with my BSN this summer. It was an immediate assumption that I would just continue on for my FNP or ANP. Of course, I am beginning to second guess myself. I have been working in the MICU for one year. Maybe this is why I am always second guessing.
The thing is...I know I am smart, but I feel so stupid. I am book smart. Put me in front of a book and I can read the crap out of it and tell you all about it.
Give me a doctor asking about my crashing patient's history are and I am like an infant drooling at the mouth. I eventually come around and kick it into high gear, but the adrenaline actually startles me at first.
Ugh...Don't get me wrong, I am not incompetent. I do my job and I do it well! I love my patients! They normally love me too :) I check and re check everything. I am always afraid to make mistakes, but that is because I have made TWO so far! I know we are not always so forth coming about our med-errors, but I really beat myself up over them.
I guess where I am heading with this is...IS it worth it to continue on for my FNP if all I am going to continue to do is belittle myself with all of these "What ifs"? What if I don't catch something right away. What if I don't clearly understand the contraindications for medications? What if my patient asks me a question and I can't answer it?
I want to advance my practice so bad, but I am going to be honest here: I want it so that I can provide for my fmaily. I want it so that I am not run down to the bone with bedside nursing. I want it because I like learning, I am just afraid that I won't know everything.
I just need some advice. and maybe a hug!
What will I be getting myself into? Is it worth it? Is it a high stress level job like working in an ICU? are the hours more "mom" appropriate (I work nights now and I hate it)? Will I learn all I need to know in school to be a competent NP?
I appreciate any and all of your responses!
Thanks guys :)