with out going into details, i was terminated from my position as a pdn yesterday due to a very stupid and dumb thing on my part.
at first i was very upset, but now i am still upset but feeling better, i was getting so burned out after 5 yrs of nursing and being responsible for "other peoples" lives. i have also been fighting the clinical depression that i have had off and on since my first open heart surgery.
i am stressed that i no longer have a job or insurance and no income. but so relieved that i am not responsible for any one else's life, that i don't constantly have to make sure that " everything" i do is charted, that i have to pretend that i enjoy my job, that i really enjoy taking care of some one else, when all i really want to do is take care of me and my family!
i go back to my pcp on the 21st due to he changed some of my meds 5 days before the incident happened and that may have been on factor that made me do what i did.
i am not asking or looking for excuses, i took full responsiblity to my actionts, admitted what i did was wrong. was open and honest with it when i had to go into the office to sign my termination papers. will probably be reviewed and investigated by the bon, but i am not letting that really worry me. i am taking care of me for a change and putting my health and instrest first!
my dear husband is upset, don't blame him, cause of all the hard work i did to get my licenses, but honestly it's no big deal to me. this could be because the new antidpressants are helping me with my state of emotional well-being!
i just feel really bad for my pt ( it was anything with her, it was paperwork issues), but her dad said that he understood and didn't think any less of me what so ever.
anyways thanks so much for allowing me to vent, express and share my feelings over this! you guys at all nurse's are awesome and understand ( some do or do not) what i am going through and i really appreciate it!
now i am just going to focus on my mental state of mind and my family for the next couple of weeks!
I will be talking to the DOCS tomorrow. She even remind me when the recruiter walked out of the room that No One would hear about this from her. She was very understanding even tried to get some lead way and called several people to help even the corporate office but she had to do what she had to do, terminate me, which I understand her position.
She was the one that said she would give me the recommendation when I found another job, Also she said she wish that she could keep me on, but her hands were tied and she did not have much lead way.
Specializes in med-surg, teaching, cardiac, priv. duty.
Hi Lorie P! I have not been on allnurses in a couple days. I just saw your post and I am so sorry at what has happened. Sometimes the best of us can get fired. We are only human and can all have lapses in judgment. From all the posts I have interacted with you in the past, you sound like a great and very competent nurse! So don't be too hard on yourself.
I actually resigned from a PD case once because I feared I could end up getting fired... long and complex story.
You mentioned that you are worn out from caring and being responsible for others. Sounds like you have "compassion fatigue", along with other problems in your life. The general public just doesn't have a clue how emotionally DRAINING it can be to be a nurse.
Take care of yourself! And again I am so sorry....
hi lorie p! i have not been on allnurses in a couple days. i just saw your post and i am so sorry at what has happened. sometimes the best of us can get fired. we are only human and can all have lapses in judgment. from all the posts i have interacted with you in the past, you sound like a great and very competent nurse! so don't be too hard on yourself.
i actually resigned from a pd case once because i feared i could end up getting fired... long and complex story. well this was kinda happening and hind-sight is 20/20.
you mentioned that you are worn out from caring and being responsible for others. sounds like you have "compassion fatigue", along with other problems in your life. the general public just doesn't have a clue how emotionally draining it can be to be a nurse. you are so very right, unless you are in the healthcare business they don't have a clue.
take care of yourself! and again i am so sorry....
things are better today, talked with the docs and there is light at the end of the tunnel! just going to
take the next few weeks to get better, take care of myself and take a long over due" mental" vacation!thanks so much for being such a great "cyber friend".
As one private duty nurse to another I am so sorry about your situation. I hope you can get support from your friends and family. Best of luck to you. :heartbeat
Lorie P.
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I will be talking to the DOCS tomorrow. She even remind me when the recruiter walked out of the room that No One would hear about this from her. She was very understanding even tried to get some lead way and called several people to help even the corporate office but she had to do what she had to do, terminate me, which I understand her position.
She was the one that said she would give me the recommendation when I found another job, Also she said she wish that she could keep me on, but her hands were tied and she did not have much lead way.
Thanks again my friend!