Stressed and Anxious New Grad

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Hey guys!

I'm here to vent/need words of encouragement (I know there are already a million threads devoted to new nurses that feel this way, so I apologize in advance).

First, let me give you a little background information. I have a bachelors degree in psychology and it wasn't until several years after I finished my bachelors that I decided to go to nursing school (some major events occurred and I discovered that nursing really was my passion). I enrolled in an accelerated MSN program for students that had bachelor's degrees in other fields. I graduated with a 4.0, won awards, etc. etc. I passed NCLEX the first time in 75 questions. I was absolutely thrilled to be an RN and I couldn't wait to care for patients and share my love of nursing with others.

I started orientation in April on a busy tele floor. Things were going well at first even though I felt fairly clueless still; I expected to feel this way so I pushed through it. After a few weeks orienting to days, I switched to orientation on night shift. My first three shifts on nights were great; much better than days since things weren't nearly as crazy and there weren't a million other people on the floor working with patients. I was feeling confident and then all of the sudden, BAM! Something changed. I have never been so stressed/anxious/nervous in my entire life. Nothing happened at work to bring this on; it just happened. This past week or so, all I have done is cry and sleep and question whether or not nursing is really for me. I've lost the drive and the passion that I once had for nursing. I'm even having a hard time connecting with my patients; this has never been an issue for me in the past! I'm feeling physically ill even on my off days knowing that I have to go back to work. Even when I'm just doing vitals and assessments, my heart feels like it is going to beat out of my chest. I've never had issues with anxiety like this.

I seriously feel like I have no idea what I'm doing anymore. I'm not making the connections I should be making and I feel as though I have NO nursing judgement what-so-ever. For example, I had a patient that had a positive guaiac that was receiving lovenox. In nursing school, I would have recognized immediately that the patient should not receive the lovenox. Now that I'm on the unit, I missed this (my preceptor caught it and we discussed calling the physician to have the order changed).

Sigh... I just feel stupid; I have NO idea what I'm doing! The other new grads on the floor seem like they're doing great and don't seem stressed in the slightest. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, but I just can't help it; I feel like I'm drowning even though I felt fine a few weeks ago.

Hopefully this post made sense... I feel like I was sort of all over the place.

Thanks in advance for advice/words of encouragement.

Specializes in Psych, Addictions, SOL (Student of Life).

I know we don't give medical advice but have you have your thyroid checked lately?

Do you maintain your day/night routine (stay up at night, sleep in the day) on your days off? If not, you are seriously screwing up your brain. :)

And the rest of it-- well, I don't want to tell you not to worry, because we all learned in nursing school never to say that to a patient. But we have all been there, done that, and you are the same person who loved what you did a few weeks ago, and have the same competence and willingness to grow you had then. Try to remember that and build on it, even if you have to put a rubber band on your wrist and snap it hard when you find yourself forgetting. This will get better, promise.

I had a similar problem after switching to nights. It settled down after a month or so.

You are not stupid, you are suffering from night shift transition.

I absolutely loved the work when I did night shift. But I hated who I became. I was needy, codependent, whiny, and decided that I was useless as a nurse.

It took switching to a complete night shift schedule, even on my days off, to make me feel better. I had to do the whole blackout, earplug, eye mask routine. I had to install a doggie door and a fence so I could get quality sleep. I used melatonin, Benadryl, sleepy tea, everything I could think of.

Once I was actually sleeping and not just occupying the bed for a few hours, my whole attitude changed. I no longer felt like I was a failure, my husband was actually glad to see me and not dreading what bizarre outburst of neediness was sure to come, and I performed much better at work.

Basically, this is a long-winded way of saying that your problem could definitely be as simple as the shift change.

This is very similar to my story. I am also a new grad on an acute medical ward. 4 weeks in and I was feeling fine and coping reasonably well for a new RN. I got to the 8-10 week stage and the anxiety kicked in. My preceptor at this stage was trying to get me to 'step up the pace' where as I felt like I was already flying by the seat of my pants, and I was terrified of making a mistake. Well a mistake did happen, albeit only fairly minor, it completely crushed my confidence.

After that I felt constantly in a 'fight or flight' mode, not able to trust myself, even more terrified, checking everything, and re-checking over and over until I was so exhausted I could no longer sleep, eat, or think clearly. I had no focus and my clinical decision making deteriorated. I lost 10% of my body weight in 10 days. I was due to get up for a morning shift and became frozen in bed just clutching my face and sobbing in fear unable to move.

That's when I decided to see my GP and am now taking medication for the anxiety. 5 months down the track and I do feel a lot less stressed and more confident, however I sill wonder if nursing is the right job for me. Everyone tells me it does get easier, but I seriously care about my patients and do not believe that the time allocated supports the quality of care that I like to give. I never go home satisfied that I have cared for my patients adequately and still feel like it is a high stress job that may have an impact on my own health in the long run.

These are a few tips that has helped me get through:

1. Be organized. Turn up a little early and make a detailed and thorough shift plan

2. Never get complacent about time and always try to be a step ahead of your tasks

3. Take your breaks, it's important to have time out to recharge.

4. Praise and thank any assistant nurses/help, they will always try to help YOU first in the future.

5. Focus on the positive things that you have achieved after each shift rather that all the things you MIGHT have missed (this has been hard).

6. Take time out on days off to do nice things for yourself like visit friends or get out into nature.

7. Use mindfulness when worry is keeping you awake at night.

8. Make sure you have/seek support whether it is a psych, friend, family or all 3. It's important to tell people how you are feeling.

Nursing is a tough gig, but there are ways to minimize the stress.

Best of luck everyone!

Specializes in Pediatrics, Emergency, Trauma.

I would like to add that self-study is the best motivator to self-correction; also remember that this is not nursing school; you have your "training wheels off" and you are going to have scrapes and bruises.

When you make a miss, commit the best practice and proper procedure to memory; even if you have to write things down and access it later.

One of things I did as a new grad and what I do now in being new in my specialty is being my pt care sheets home-redacted for HIPAA-and reflect on what I did for that pt, and reflected on the WHY, examine what I could do better if I see a patient with the same assessment and diagnosis later, and go from there, away from a stress-free environment, and resources, especially from nursing practice books.

It does get easier, but having. A plan to bridge the gap in transitioning and building ones practice is key to reduce the anxiety when missteps and misses occur-be proactive and remember what I call the 3 C's:

Consistency: remember to perform best practice consistently;

Competence: always aim for doing effective nursing care;

Confidence: be confident to ask questions, question orders, and realize that you are learning; be confident that every pt doesn't have a one-size fits all plan; always seek out opportunities in bouncing off ideas with more experienced peers, whether it be a tech, nurse, or provider.

Best wishes.

Specializes in Rehabilitation,Critical Care.

Start a journal. Write all your anxieties down and what you did great in the shift. What you can do in better next shift. WriWrite yWrite your goals for next shift

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