I was sitting outside a friends house early Sunday morning saying goodbye when we both heard a massive car accident on the interstate. He looked at me and said someone is definitely hurt so we rushed down the road to see. I pulled up and there was a man on the ground and his friend holding his head. I walked closer and saw that he was obviously thrown from the car and had major head trauma. I'm a brand new nurse, less than 3 months on my first nursing job, so I was completely out of my element. I did not panic though, I thought of the basics, ABC, so I took my jacket off and applied pressure to his head wound. He was spitting up blood and blood was coming from his nose. I turned him to the side so he didn't choke on his blood. I could literally feel his pulse getting weaker and weaker, and I knew there was nothing I could do. About 15 minutes later Mr. Roy, a decorated Chief in the Navy, a husband and father of 2, died in my arms. They were rear-ended by a drunk driver, who fled the scene (they found her a few hours later and she's charged with DUI manslaughter along with other things) I'm a psych nurse, we don't handle any type of trauma, but this experience really makes me want to be an ER nurse or OR nurse, but I don't know if I could handle it. I was not affected by the blood, or his head wound, or any of that at all, but I just feel so terrible, I didn't even know him but I feel like I lost someone. (Not to mention my father died 4 months ago and I was with him, holding his hand when he passed away). Me and the friend that was with me went and put a cross and flowers on the interstate where he died, and it almost brings me to tears when I see the huge spot of blood all dried up where he was laying on the concrete. I wonder if there's anything I could have done to save him that I didn't. I can handle the scene, just don't know if I can handle the emotional aspect of it, losing a patient. I've heard it will never get any easier, I'm just sad. Well thanks for reading.