Understandably this is a very emotional time for you and physically painful. During moments like these, sometimes people make drastic decisions that they otherwise wouldn't do. Before you throw in the towel on nursing as a profession, why don't you concentrate on your health and family, wait out the storm, no matter how long it takes, and then regroup. I got my BSN at 47, and I wouldn't want to dismiss all that sacrifice. But if it's what you feel is best for your, by all means, you know yourself better than any of us. Good luck and God Speed.