This week I've been taking a chem review class and I feel discouraged. Next week I'll be taking A&P, nurse aid, med term and english II (the last two are online).
I don't get chem. I don't feel smart enough. I know it takes longer for me to apply some things. I never had the best determination but I am more determined than I ever had been in my life. But I'm still not sure if it is good enough. I'm 23 and just moved back home, too. It is nice not to stress about money anymore. However, I cannot get along with my mom. She throws tantrums like a child and yells and is ignorant about a lot of things. I'm stubborn and react with anger or tell her to not talk to me and walk away, and then she screams and and goes to talk about me to my dad trying to get him on her side. This is how it's always been, but my dad has mellowed with age and doesn't really play that game anymore. My mom is still insane. I'm starting to feel depressed again and I try not to be at home a lot but I feel like I have no home base.
I moved out at 18 to stay away from my parents and have just been messing around and now I'm ready to make a difference. I feel better, I exercise, I eat well, I have more energy and I am more in shape now.
I'm not working now so I have no income. I want to wait until my CNA class is over at least to see if I can juggle work and classes.
I really do want to become a nurse but I don't think I'm smart enough, and maybe not determined enough, or at least I get discouraged and prone to depression easily. I'm not as bad as I used to be. But I'm not sure what to do.
Any advice? I wasn't sure where to post.