So, I'm a new grad in the NICU... I was a tech on the same unit for my last semester of nursing school. I thought I really liked NI, I thought it would definitely get more interesting and exciting once I was a full fledged nurse there. But, I'm feeling a bit underwhelmed. I am in the middle of my preceptorship, exactly 6 weeks in. My first 4 weeks, I loved my preceptor - she was very knowledgeable, seasoned, and really taught me about patho, labs, equipment unique to the neo population - along with the policies and procedures of the unit. The day shift nurses were more mature and very helpful in helping me learn.
Then, I switched shifts. My new preceptor - I have no doubt she is smart and very good at her job, but I don't get the same attention from her. She seems to be more annoyed that I don't already know everything, leaves me to myself more often than I am comfortable with (I haven't had NRP yet and we had a mirco that was kinda unstable so I was freaking out). Plus, I feel very awkward with the night shift RNs - they are mostly young, whereas I am older and on my second career.
So far, the only feedback I have gotten has been regarding my charting - minor details specificto the system that they use, it's repetitive and ancient. But yet I feel like - especially my current preceptor feels like I am a subpar nurse. I've notice things like she rolls her eyes when I do things in a different order than she does, or she jumps in and finishes an assessment because I am going to slow, or makes faces that lead me to belive I am doing something wrong when moving a baby. Like, I was moving a vented mirco with a large tumor, while my preceptor was changing linens and her face was making the "omg NO don't do that" face but she never corrected me or made a suggestion to me. Then come to find out she went and told another RN that I didn't know what I was doing. Which, I will admit - I did the best I could, but was terrified the whole time.
Anyway, I really want to enjoy my time in the NI and make the most of my preceptorship. Any advice? I already have Merenstein's - which I read as often as I can but it's not very helpful with nursing interventions.