Thank you for the post. I also have been diagnoses with ADHD as an adult. Ive struggled my whole life in school. I was always the smart one but the one that didnt "try" enough. I was also the troublemaker and the one that didnt pay attention. Unfortunately, back in Poland ADHD wasn't (and still isnt) well understood.
I get so frustrated when people don't realize how debilitating ADHD can be. Yes, I agree that a lot of people are being misdiagnosed , but it is a true illness.
I tried Adderall and flushed them down the toilet after a week, I have a substance abuse history and the psychiatrist that gave them to me must have not realized how bad it was. I was taking 60mg within few days. I shredded the Rx and flushed them down the toilet. I have tried Straterra and it worked great until it pooped out on me. Im also on Lithium for cyclothymia. Honestly, I still feel misdiagnosed. I def have ADHD , very figety, distracted, disorganized, my cuticles are raw from picking and if I dont do that then I bite my lips or inside of my mouth, low frustration tolerance, forgetting deadlines, losing stuff, difficulty waiting turn, blurring out answers, making careless mistakes.. etc etc we all know how it is....
I got a job as a manager 7 months ago and I hate it. I am in grad school, I have a 8 year old, two cats, a dog and my mom is living with me lol I do feel bad for not trying harder anymore, but this might be the best I can do.
Like someone else mentioned "So you mean Im not lazy, stupid or crazy" is a very good book. It made me feel less guilty for not "giving my best."
Im ver grateful for your post, its very honest and sheds light on how it is to live with ADHD.