I was, in fact, bullied in nursing school. I mean, another student literally said to the student next to her that she wanted to kick my ***. Along with other choice words I've since blocked out. Not an isolated incident, either.
The scenario that apparently warranted this comment? It was first day in peds clinical. Our clinical group was waiting in the lobby for our instructor to arrive. She was about 20 minutes late at that point. My classmates started growing concerned for her. I had had her as a clinical instructor before, however. So I knew this was typical of her. I knew it even before my clinical with her as other students had gossiped of her tardiness and even not showing up at all once. So, I said, in an attempt to ease worry, "I'm sure she's ok. She's notorious for being late." Now, I really liked this instructor. She had been my favorite so far. In my mind I was stating a fact to ease worry. I can now see how this could have been interpreted as me bashing on the instructor. Even so, that does Not warrant what was then said about wanting to beat me up.
That's just one example. It was actually quite brutal. I very clearly remember sitting in my mental health class one day, tears welled up in my eyes, avoiding eye contact with the teacher, contemplating suicide. This was right after being called into a different teacher's office having had "a talking to" regarding what "other students" were saying about me. Mind you nothing specific was stated. No specific action I did. No specific statement I made. I boil it down to a handful of "mean girls" gossiping to the teachers about me bc I was a quiet student who probably came off to them as stuck up. Please, I was the most unsure of myself student.
I wrote a paper on lateral violence, it being obviously a very passionate, personal topic of mine due to my experiences. The only comment on the paper from same teacher...."Ironic." That hit me right in my gut. To be accused, in such an unprofessional manner at that, of being a student who bullies others.
Do I have a propensity for depression? Yes. Was the bullying what absolutely sent me over the edge? Absolutely. So I don't take bullying lightly. While it is ultimately the responsibility of the individual who takes their life, I DO believe *some* responsibility lies on other's shoulders who bully.
I had an equally severe case of bullying at my very first nursing job. This time, I completely understand the hate aimed at me. Once again I opened my mouth saying something not meant to have been rude in the slightest. But, looking back, it absolutely, positively came out condescending, no question. The punishment/backlash was far too severe for the crime, though. At night during shift change, the nurse's would come on the unit, go in the dining room and bicker about not wanting to be the one to get report from me. The nursing assistants blatantly told me to do things myself after that when attempting to delegate. When I needed assistance from another nurse, I was told a few times "You're an RN, you can figure it out yourself."
The crime? Oh boy, ok. This is what I said. Background: SNF in the process of hiring only RNs. Was told during interview that they were phasing out LPNs. One night at shift change, an LPN I really admired stated he was just about to finish his RN and start an MSN program. I congratulated him and said that was really cool. Then I proceeded to put my foot in my mouth by saying "One thing I wasn't quite prepared for was the extra responsibility of being one of the only RNs in the building." What I meant? We typically had 2 RNs for 200 residents. All IVs fell on us, of course. So in addition to my 30+ residents, I usually had 2-3 patients on other floors to start IVs and run fluids/ABTs. It was quite the handful to juggle. Just as I would get back on my unit and get back to my med pass, one patient's IV was done, and another pt needed one started.
So THAT'S what I meant. But of course nobody could have known that is ALL I meant. Very stupid thing for me to say. Very. But man the bullying after drove me out. I tried going to management. I was told "You're their superior. You have the authority to write them up " I thought, "yeah, that's going to go over well considering what got me into this. It never let up. One day I couldn't bear to go in. Had a panic attack and called and quit right before my shift. Bullying is no joke.