Background- BSN grad about 7 months ago. I work nights in the float pool which is what I did as an aide (first and only new grad hired in this small pool). I won't start PCU or ICU until another 6 months. Anyway, I accepted it, knowing I needed to get some basic experience. In school, I was all about trauma and ICU and when I got to practicum, I wasn't as excited about it anymore.... Part of that could have been my awful preceptor and the overall poor atmosphere.
Now, half of me just doesn't feel happy. I feel like nights make me moody, I am sleeping 4-6 hours when I work and 12 (!!) on my days off. I am recently married so I do flip flop my days and nights, otherwise Id have no life.
But I DO like the 25% diff and the ability to slow down, learn, and think about what I am doing (I know I wouldn't get this experience on days). I also like choosing my own schedule which is a perk of this float pool.
Bottom line, I am just never looking forward to coming into work. I feel blah. I went through a phase of applying for clinic RN jobs and case management positions. I did get calls but decided I needed to be rational about my next move and actually figure out what my passion is. I even applied for a surgery job and got an interview and now I'm second guessing everything- what if I HATE sugery?
Did it take you a while to find out which area of nursing is right for you? Maybe I am also struggling with the thought of leaving bedside after I get my one year in