Thank you so much!
I am not sure why I'm feeling this way. In my youth, I racked up all the good grades believing I'll find the perfect career. But this is far from reality. I see people here that comes from different background and for one reason or another decide they want to try something new. I hate debt. I suppose this is why I worry so much when I face a very tough exam in which I had to memorize so much. But I chose pharmacy because initially, I'd be scared to prick someone.
In class one time, we were learning how to immunize someone or even checking someone's blood sugar and I was so scared to do it on a dummy model. Somehow, I knew they weren't the real deal. But hey, they say, most fears can be overcome.
Anyways, I'm only in my first year so I need to go back to the drawing board, and remember why exactly I chose pharmacy over medicine or nursing. I need to find that passion again.
However, the work is challenging and sometimes, when I'm unprepared, I panic which then leads to wonders about the consequences of that debt. It seems I don't really enjoy the education because of this stress.
In any event, searching on here, I found out about this website. As it is just my tough luck, the National Health Service Corps doesn't seem to have a loan repayment for pharmacy. Anyone know of such other programs?
Your point is well taken and somehow, I just might toughen it up and enjoy my career as so many people would love to be in my shoes right now. Thank you for your candid reply.
P.S. My interest in nursing is also genuine. I've been in hospitals where I had to care for a dying, very close and young family member. I know the fears. Perhaps I was too busy and worried to notice the emotional side of nursing... but I definitely know the sadness.