No that doesn't feel good. You are not alone itsbekah. I think many new psych nurses experience the self doubt that you are feeling. I know I did. What worked for me may work for you. Think about the different professionals you work with. Some have strengths de-escalating, others are great helping process issues, someone else may be best at redirecting inappropriate behavior. When a situation occurs when you need a skill set that you do not have, consider pretending you are that nurse or SW or MD with the skills that you need. I wasmthe charge nurse of a locked adolescent unit in the 80s. I was a brand-new grad and pretty clueless to mental health, a subject I almost flunked in nursing school. I just pretended I was Nathan who was so capable with agitated or aggressive teenagers. Nathan was the most capable of avoiding a take down, by soothing and educating and redirecting. I learned the importance of staying calm from him. I became very proficient at adopting and adapting the strengthes I observed daily in Others. In time you will have an arsenal of skills learned from other professionals.
Haldol for sleep is not appropriate unless the practioner wrote in the order to give for sleep. Please request a sleeper is ordered.
From what you have shared it sounds like your being bullied. It's important you learn how and when to set limits on other people. Patients, MDs (carefully) and fellow nurses. It's okay to stand up for yourself and expected. Sometimes you have to show muster to get respect. I've learned that standing up to bullies, for example, make them back down. I have witnessed a fellow RN (she couldn't weigh more then 80#) stand up tall at 4" to patients and staff twice her size. And she controlled them because she expected them to comply. Reflected in her body language, words, tone of voice. I learned lots from that pipsqueek including how to be stern in a caring manner. Over time most nurses find comfort in the milieu. While I no longer work the locked units I visit as a consultant regularly. I still feel safer there then anywhere else in the hospital. its funny how frightened I was in the beginning. Good luck.