Thanks for the replys, i have friends in other hospitals trying to help me out. All i can do is hope something comes through. It's tough having an associates (or BSN) with no experience in my city. I really appreciate the support, my family doesn't understand, especially since it took me an entire year post graduation to find a job. Until something happens i just have to suck it up since I can't quit with nothing to go to. Yes its a med/surg unit. I would just like to go to work, and be happy going to work -- although I think nursing ruined me, the other part of me know it hasn't. I enjoy interacting with my patients, i enjoy getting to know them, I absolutely love love love patient teaching, I enjoy comforting them, making sure they are okay while i'm taking care of them, I take pride in it, i really do, but how can i give the best care i can when i have half the floor at times (with my preceptor of course) with no help from the support staff and so many patient's its impossible to keep track. I don't like going to work with dread and fear in my heart, i really don't. My orientation is a joke to say the least. I'll just leave it at that. Hopefully i'll be making a newer happier post in the future. cross your fingers I find something soon.