Believe me, I have searched my soul and wish I knew what is going on.
I do not have an NP degree. My degree is in management and leadership. Wish I had gone the NP route, but hindsight is 20/20. Anyway, since I have no experience in any other specialty besides dialysis, no one will hire me to be a manager in anything else - which logically makes sense.
It could be the area I live in. I have had others tell me that the market in my area is saturated with nurses and the competition is tough - I live in Houston. Actually I did work for a time as a research nurse at MD Anderson, but the commute was 4 hours a day - 2 hours one way - and was not sustainable. I gave it up after a year, and after I resigned, I think I slept practically around the clock for two weeks. I could have moved but housing inside the loop is a million plus for a mid century home in need of numerous upgrades.
I actually would like to get into something that would be more like auditing or billing. I realize now I should have gotten a degree in healthcare administration, because that is what holds my interest more than anything. But again, hindsight is 20/20. I like working with data more than people, but I don't know how to turn that into a career.
I googled myself to see if anything negative showed up, and it all looks wholesome enough. I scrubbed my Facebook page of photos and posts that might come across as negative. So who knows?