Normally, I enjoy just reading what people post, but I need to vent....
When I graduated high school I decided to pursue nursing. I got rejected from RN programs a total of five times. I wanted to achieve my goal and move on with my life, so I applied to and got accepted into a vocational nursing program. Yes, the first semester and a half was stressful, but I was doing well and I really enjoyed it. This semester has been a real struggle though. I went from getting A’s and B’s on tests to barely passing. Plus, I’m trying to fight burnout, and the responsibility of caring for people’s lives isn’t making me feel good anymore; it’s overwhelming me! I’m so scared of accidentally making a mistake doing more harm than good for my patients. Every time I get something wrong or make a mistake I tell everyone I’m fine and try to look like I’m put together, but inside I’m tearing myself to shreds for making dumb mistakes on tests etc. long story short I’m not enjoying theory or clinical like I use to. This month has felt like one long anxiety attack. I’ve worked for 4 years to get into a program only to want to give up?! I can’t stand it!!
We are starting our peds and ob rotation and after we have one semester left. I want to persevere hoping it will get better, but doesn’t look like it will. I hate the idea of being a quitter. I want to continue to fight, but I need energy.
Do you think this is a phase? Has anyone else felt this way? If so, did you stick with nursing and regret it?
sorry for the long post