Potentially positive option 2..

rn1965, ADN · Sep 13, 2019

I am sorry this is happening to you. I hope you will take care of yourself first. I wish I had words of wisdom for you. I do not know what I would do in your shoes.

Are you sure that the option you were chosen for is for EtG? From what I have read, it detects for the presence of etoh for the last 5 or so days. I wish you luck!

Bugsandlola22, BSN · Sep 13, 2019

Thank you for your kind words @rn1965 I am not sure 100% but I know a few members from my peer group were positive for alcohol via option 2. I usually get 3-6, haven't had a 2 in a year. Perhaps I'm wrong, didnt know the etoh factor. Thanks again!

SpankedInPittsburgh, DNP, RN · Sep 13, 2019

I’m not sure about option 2. I almost always get selected for option 3. I thought option 3 tested for etg and option 2 didn’t. However, if you drank last night and are tested today this may not matter as you may fail the regular etoh test as well. I don’t really know what to tell you but I don’t think a voluntary confession will help much. Here they seem to have you go back to the beginning of the program sometimes with rehab and sometimes without. I’m very sorry you are in this position. In most recovery efforts relapse is expected and dealt with by caring folks. Here it it punished harshly. I wish you the best and thank you for sharing as this is a cautionary tale for us all. The only way outta of this pit is strict compliance and any chance of failing a test is too great of one to take. Good luck!!!!

Bugsandlola22, BSN · Sep 13, 2019

@SpankedInPittsburgh thank you for your support and kindness. I believe you may be correct about the voluntary confession not helping which truly is ashame. I too usually get option 3 and honestly you may be right about 2 being etoh. What will be will be and I will have to prepare for potential consequences including being pulled out of work and contract extension. Thank you again and absolutely right you are about strict compliance -- To all who read this and may be facing temptation / battling urges THE STRESS IS NOT WORTH IT I WILL NOT SLEEP WELL UNTIL MY RESULTS ARE POSTED I wish I had handled the situation differently PLEaSe do not risk your sobriety or your sanity!!!!

chadprepton, ADN · Sep 13, 2019

Stuff happens to all of us. I know it sounds stupid but, this could be your last relapse you ever have. It’s pretty power when you understand you can do that!!

for the board. Honestly I’d wait. I can’t see anything positive coming from talking to them. Hang in there!

IrishCMSRN, BSN, RN · Sep 16, 2019

Knowing what I know now, I would skip the test. The board is not your friend. The minute you admit to use, you are starting over again at month zero. I’m not typically a dishonest person but have been screwed over royally by this program. Good luck!

TexNurse777 · Oct 6, 2019

So what happened?????

Bugsandlola22, BSN · Oct 6, 2019

unfortunately @IrishCMSRN was spot on about starting over again at month zero. I decided not to voluntarily admit my relapse but when my case manager called me out on it I didn't deny it or request an MRO review. I truly feel ashamed for putting my career in jeopardy and I lost my job because of this. However, I have no choice but to be positive while I deal with my consequences, which include -- "voluntary" deactivation of my license, disclosing my.relapse to my group and my employer which meant immediately being pulled out of work, 90/90(GPS tracked/signatures), IOP evaluation for treatment (already went for-- the counselor told my case manager I "do not fit criteria for any substance abuse treatment"), and also a 2 year contract extension.

I appreciate everyone's advice and words of kindness. I hope that everyone stays sober and focused on the finish line -- all of us will get there, in due time. Freedom is a dish best to serve and enjoy after defeating a difficult battle.

TexNurse777 · Oct 6, 2019

Duuuuude that sucks!!!! That is a really harsh punishment, in my opinion. Was this your first slip up? How long have you been in the program?

Don't beat yourself up though...I had a much worse slip up and I would've been done this year, had I not ***ed up. I've been at this crap for 3 years already, and it's complete BS. I can't wait to be done.

Good luck to you, and I hope it goes by quickly.

SpankedInPittsburgh, DNP, RN · Oct 6, 2019

Yeah the closer I get to the end the more paranoid I get about false positives. I honestly don’t know if I could start over again. It’s a thought too darn depressing to conceive of. When I was in my forced nurse support group (what an expensive complete waste of time) one nurse drank when her counselor told her she put the paperwork in for her to be done. She was tested soon after. Had to begin all over again. Horrible!!! If one is to savor the victory of surviving this nonsense make darn sure you have actually won.

Bravo-rn47 · Oct 7, 2019

On 10/6/2019 at 4:02 AM, Bugsandlola22 said:
unfortunately @IrishCMSRN was spot on about starting over again at month zero. I decided not to voluntarily admit my relapse but when my case manager called me out on it I didn't deny it or request an MRO review. I truly feel ashamed for putting my career in jeopardy and I lost my job because of this. However, I have no choice but to be positive while I deal with my consequences, which include -- "voluntary" deactivation of my license, disclosing my.relapse to my group and my employer which meant immediately being pulled out of work, 90/90(GPS tracked/signatures), IOP evaluation for treatment (already went for-- the counselor told my case manager I "do not fit criteria for any substance abuse treatment"), and also a 2 year contract extension.
I appreciate everyone's advice and words of kindness. I hope that everyone stays sober and focused on the finish line -- all of us will get there, in due time. Freedom is a dish best to serve and enjoy after defeating a difficult battle.

That is **********!!! So sorry!