I've been on orientation for only 3 - 4 weeks on an oncology and orthopedics floor (I know, but an Oncology Dr. left our hospital and the floors had to be combined), and it is turning into a nightmare. When I show up for work, the 3 other nurses working with me don't hold back how irritated they are to see me walk onto the floor. Sometimes, I can HEAR them say bad things about me. When I offer to help with something, I'm being a pest. When I don't, I'm lazy. When I think I may need rapid response, I'm stupid and it's overkill. When I don't, then I'm incompetent and don't care about the patient. I can't win.
I already feel stupid and incompetent inside...I am unsure of myself and I am one of those who would MUCH rather say "I don't know" than lie and say I do. I feel like I have to choose between my ego and my integrity. If I admit I don't know, I'm thrown under the bus.
I'm griped at, snipped at, and ******* about CONSTANTLY. The floor is tense and the other nurses stop talking when I walk by. My preceptor switches shifts with other nurses without telling me and I come to the floor with no preceptor. The nurse who gets stuck with me tries to lose me and it's a wasted night. My preceptor is 21 years old and will call my phone to say "don't forget to listen to your patients' lungs tonight" and I hear her across the floor snickering about it with the other nurses.
I feel like quitting. Every.single.********.DAY. I feel like my preceptorship is a joke, and my preceptor basically just has me help make her night easier. I am a glorified over skilled CNA. She is happy b/c we are done by 6:30. I'm NOT learning new things, and she treats me like a nuisance if I try to do something like, oh..I don't know... do admission paperwork!
She is too impatient to allow me to learn things on my own, and only wants things with her patients done "just so" so I can't do paperwork, call a dr., etc. Just the basic busywork so she can get out earlier.
My supervisor loves my preceptor, and I worry that if I complain about her to him, then he will tell her and will only make the situation worse.
*sometimes, when lab or RT walks into my patient's room for a tx or to get labs, I wish so badly I could switch places with them in that instant.* I dread coming to work.
I work PRN at a nursing home that I LOVE and my supervisor recently offered me a FT position on the DL, but I'm worried that if I stay at a nursing home for too long, then I will lose my skills and will be unable to get a job elsewhere. Also, I feel like I'm taking the 'easy way out' and my ego won't let me quit.
I'm 30 and have 3 kids under the age of 4. I'm not trying to climb any corporate ladders: I just want to have the money to provide a decent life for my kids. I'm not sure what to do.
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I've been on orientation for only 3 - 4 weeks on an oncology and orthopedics floor (I know, but an Oncology Dr. left our hospital and the floors had to be combined), and it is turning into a nightmare. When I show up for work, the 3 other nurses working with me don't hold back how irritated they are to see me walk onto the floor. Sometimes, I can HEAR them say bad things about me. When I offer to help with something, I'm being a pest. When I don't, I'm lazy. When I think I may need rapid response, I'm stupid and it's overkill. When I don't, then I'm incompetent and don't care about the patient. I can't win.
I already feel stupid and incompetent inside...I am unsure of myself and I am one of those who would MUCH rather say "I don't know" than lie and say I do. I feel like I have to choose between my ego and my integrity. If I admit I don't know, I'm thrown under the bus.
I'm griped at, snipped at, and ******* about CONSTANTLY. The floor is tense and the other nurses stop talking when I walk by. My preceptor switches shifts with other nurses without telling me and I come to the floor with no preceptor. The nurse who gets stuck with me tries to lose me and it's a wasted night. My preceptor is 21 years old and will call my phone to say "don't forget to listen to your patients' lungs tonight" and I hear her across the floor snickering about it with the other nurses.
I feel like quitting. Every.single.********.DAY. I feel like my preceptorship is a joke, and my preceptor basically just has me help make her night easier. I am a glorified over skilled CNA. She is happy b/c we are done by 6:30. I'm NOT learning new things, and she treats me like a nuisance if I try to do something like, oh..I don't know... do admission paperwork!
She is too impatient to allow me to learn things on my own, and only wants things with her patients done "just so" so I can't do paperwork, call a dr., etc. Just the basic busywork so she can get out earlier.
My supervisor loves my preceptor, and I worry that if I complain about her to him, then he will tell her and will only make the situation worse.
*sometimes, when lab or RT walks into my patient's room for a tx or to get labs, I wish so badly I could switch places with them in that instant.* I dread coming to work.
I work PRN at a nursing home that I LOVE and my supervisor recently offered me a FT position on the DL, but I'm worried that if I stay at a nursing home for too long, then I will lose my skills and will be unable to get a job elsewhere. Also, I feel like I'm taking the 'easy way out' and my ego won't let me quit.
I'm 30 and have 3 kids under the age of 4. I'm not trying to climb any corporate ladders: I just want to have the money to provide a decent life for my kids. I'm not sure what to do.