I just had my first baby on 11/26. I DID panic! My baby was traverse and my water broke at home at 37 weeks, so automatic section. Worst experience of my life! I was very nervous going in and had asked for anything for anxiety...no dice. I was given a spinal and was numb, but it still HURT! Not the cutting, but just pain. I guess it was what they were calling "pressure"? Then during the surgery I began vomiting. My BP dropped to 94/48. Immediately after they took my son out, and I heard him cry, as they were stuffing everything back in, I began having a full blown panic attack.I hurt, I felt like I couldn't breathe (although they assured me I was), and I continued to retch. I thought I was going to die. I looked up at the anesthesiologist and begged him to help me. He asked, "what do you want me to do?" Really?! The surgeon who was still working on me, suggested the anesthesiologist give me some Ketamine. Finally, I was given 10mg morphine in my IV, which did help to calm me. I was humiliated, but I really couldn't help it. My birth experience was totally ruined. No magical bonding for me and my baby. I was so wrapped up in my own symptoms, I couldn't focus on him at all. It's only been 7 weeks ago, so I'm still feeling really disappointed and guilty in myself for my bad reaction, lol. I wish I had been able to deliver vaginally.