Nurses struggling with mental illness

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I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major co-morbid mental illness, Major depression/PTSD/DID, and have had many problems in my career. I have been in therapy and on meds for a long time and have worked very hard to be functional, and I have suprised myself by what I have been able to achieve. Currently, I am a hospice nurse in a residential setting and it seems that I have found my niche. It doesn't aggravate my illness too much. I am very busy at times and most of my job revolves in much cognitive thinking and decision making about the best ways to respond to a patient's emerging or existing symptoms, and in assessing patients to see where they are in the dying process, plus lots of educating to patients and families. My extensive personal trauma background has made me able to have a different perspective on death and don't see it as the scary thing that is SO SAD, that a lot of people do. Plus, because of the things that I have been through, I am more able to be compassionate and understanding of patients and their fears. I especially do well with patients with existing mental illness or lots of anxiety. I notice that a lot of nurses have little tolerance for a patients anxiety and are not willing to take the extra time to walk them through things and provide the extra reassurance that they need.

Yes, there are some nursing jobs that I don't think I would be able to do because of the fast on the spot life and death action necessary. ER and Trauma/Burn are pretty much out for me. But thats OK. A lot of nurses couldn't handle doing what I do either for their own reasons. We are all suited to certain things.

Having mental illness doesn't automatically make you unsuited for the nursing profession. Even though I have heard many times, "what are you doing here?" "Shouldn't you be doing something else, less stressful?"

I am here and am doing the thing I am suited for. Yes sometimes I have to take time off due to my illness, but its no different than somone who has flare ups of a chronic physical illness like lupus, chronic fatigue, or fibromyalgia.

I would like to know how other nurses have coped with their own illness and their nursing careers.

Severina

Just wanted to say hello to everyone. The intensive outpatient therapy is helping. The meds are definitely helping. Not working is the best therapy, however, I definitely am worried about the bills. i am still waiting for SSID to kick in. Meanwhile, does anyone out there have any suggestions for obtaining cheap health insurance if you are not able to work due to mental illness?

Hello,

I'm glad that you are doing better. The bad news is that health insurance will be a problem since you have been diagnosed with a mental illness. The insurance companies consider it a pre-existing condition. Remember insurance companies only insure healthy people--not the people who might make a claim. They make more money this way. Once you have disability, you'll have some health insurance.

Fuzzy

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Perhaps with your experience, you could provide some suggestions for my situation. I am a student nurse with a generalized anxiety disorder and find it difficult on occasions to concentrate and focus during my clinical rotation. I need advice on how to help keep myself organized and keep it together. I do know that it helps alot when i feel prepared but what can you do when there are things that you can't prepare for? Also, in what ways can i prepare for my shift? (I am currently doing my rotation on a Med/Surg floor with a heavy patient load and i am finding it very challenging to prioritize care and to keep up to speed).

Any advice would be greatly appreciated,

sasha2006

{{{{{{{{{Sasha}}}}}}}}}}}}}}All I can say is, stay as strong as you can (emotionally spiritually and physically) for as long as you can!

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Just wanted to say hello to everyone. The intensive outpatient therapy is helping. The meds are definitely helping. Not working is the best therapy, however, I definitely am worried about the bills. i am still waiting for SSID to kick in. Meanwhile, does anyone out there have any suggestions for obtaining cheap health insurance if you are not able to work due to mental illness?

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Sarabasedis}}}}}}}}}}} Can you get a state sponsored insurance? Like here, we have "MaineCare". Perhaps if you call your local crisis hotline, or department of human services, they can steer you to some health insurance. Also, if you sign up with your local hospital, often you can get "uncompensated care" which is based on income (with mine, the outpatient services are connected to the inpatient so those are covered, too).

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Sarabasedis}}}}}}}}}}} Can you get a state sponsored insurance? Like here, we have "MaineCare". Perhaps if you call your local crisis hotline, or department of human services, they can steer you to some health insurance. Also, if you sign up with your local hospital, often you can get "uncompensated care" which is based on income (with mine, the outpatient services are connected to the inpatient so those are covered, too).

Unfortunately, a great number of states have only Medicaid. And a good number of us have income that disallows us from that system.

Grannynurse:balloons:

I am a nurse that has major depression and ptsd. i have been having alot of flashbacks memories lately. i realize i have lived in denial most of my life and making poor judgements, including in my nursing career. Poor judgements that caused me to make mistakes and lose jobs. I am struggling with trusting myself to continue to work because of my mental illness. There isn't anything else I am qualified to do. I can't seem to let go of my mistakes and am obsessed with thinking about them. Can anyone out there help me with some advice or offer hope, own experiences?

Dear Doglover,

I have also struggled with poor judgements, anxiety disorder which caused me to make mistakes, which caused more anxiety...You may be obsessing over your past. You have to let go of it. Remember the saying: The past is history the future is a mystery, the present is a gift from God, which is why it is called a present.

By engaging in obsessive thinking, you are creating a treadmill for yourself. You are not a victim, or a survivor, but a wonderful, intelligent human being ( see what I learned in IOT?)

Thanks for your reply. I have been beating myself up because of mistakes and lost jobs. I have had a really hard time in nursing. Some of it has been political because I don't know how to handle myself with people. I end up making a mistake and being the scapegoat for others. Although I do take resposibililty for the mistakes I have made. I live in fear that if my coworkers knew or maybe they already do I would not have a job. I basically do a good job. My illness has affected my judgement and this year I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. Since I have been taking the synthroid my thinking is becomiing clearer all the time. I wonder if all of my life my thyroid level affected my thinking because I have made some pretty poor judgements and done things I am not proud of. I do realize now, although it is not an excuse but a reason that my depression, ptsd and hypothyroidism did not help my thought processes and caused me to make some pretty poor judgements.

I am involved in a divorce from my x. My job related stress led me to go into intensive outpatient therapy. I am not working. The manic depression I was experiencing caused me to spend all my cash, so now I am desperately trying to hold onto my house. My divorce lawyer says that my x's lawyer thinks I am trying to manipulate the system by "faking it" since I am a college educated woman while my x only has 3 yrs of college and earns alot of cash. I am about to lose my health care benefits.

Do I take care of my health? Do I stay in IOT or try to work perdiem for a while just to earn cash. I am going to shoot myself in the foot if I work in order to pay the bills even if I feel I am not well enough to work? AAAAHHH!!!

I am involved in a divorce from my x. My job related stress led me to go into intensive outpatient therapy. I am not working. The manic depression I was experiencing caused me to spend all my cash, so now I am desperately trying to hold onto my house. My divorce lawyer says that my x's lawyer thinks I am trying to manipulate the system by "faking it" since I am a college educated woman while my x only has 3 yrs of college and earns alot of cash. I am about to lose my health care benefits.

Do I take care of my health? Do I stay in IOT or try to work perdiem for a while just to earn cash. I am going to shoot myself in the foot if I work in order to pay the bills even if I feel I am not well enough to work? AAAAHHH!!!

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Work as if everything depends upon you

Perhaps with your experience, you could provide some suggestions for my situation. I am a student nurse with a generalized anxiety disorder and find it difficult on occasions to concentrate and focus during my clinical rotation. I need advice on how to help keep myself organized and keep it together. I do know that it helps alot when i feel prepared but what can you do when there are things that you can't prepare for? Also, in what ways can i prepare for my shift? (I am currently doing my rotation on a Med/Surg floor with a heavy patient load and i am finding it very challenging to prioritize care and to keep up to speed).

Any advice would be greatly appreciated,

sasha2006

Experience will make a big difference. I felt the same way in nursing school. I would post this in a different area where you will get more answers from experienced nurses. You don't need to have an anxiety disorder to feel how you feel as a student. I would post this under the general area or in the area where experienced nurses give students advice or under the student section to see how other students have found ways to cope. Krisssy

I am involved in a divorce from my x. My job related stress led me to go into intensive outpatient therapy. I am not working. The manic depression I was experiencing caused me to spend all my cash, so now I am desperately trying to hold onto my house. My divorce lawyer says that my x's lawyer thinks I am trying to manipulate the system by "faking it" since I am a college educated woman while my x only has 3 yrs of college and earns alot of cash. I am about to lose my health care benefits.

Do I take care of my health? Do I stay in IOT or try to work perdiem for a while just to earn cash. I am going to shoot myself in the foot if I work in order to pay the bills even if I feel I am not well enough to work? AAAAHHH!!!

You must take care of yourself before you can help others. Can you apply for social security disability and then get medicare? You can get ss disability for mental illness, and then you get Medicare with it. Krisssy

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