Nurses struggling with mental illness

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I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major co-morbid mental illness, Major depression/PTSD/DID, and have had many problems in my career. I have been in therapy and on meds for a long time and have worked very hard to be functional, and I have suprised myself by what I have been able to achieve. Currently, I am a hospice nurse in a residential setting and it seems that I have found my niche. It doesn't aggravate my illness too much. I am very busy at times and most of my job revolves in much cognitive thinking and decision making about the best ways to respond to a patient's emerging or existing symptoms, and in assessing patients to see where they are in the dying process, plus lots of educating to patients and families. My extensive personal trauma background has made me able to have a different perspective on death and don't see it as the scary thing that is SO SAD, that a lot of people do. Plus, because of the things that I have been through, I am more able to be compassionate and understanding of patients and their fears. I especially do well with patients with existing mental illness or lots of anxiety. I notice that a lot of nurses have little tolerance for a patients anxiety and are not willing to take the extra time to walk them through things and provide the extra reassurance that they need.

Yes, there are some nursing jobs that I don't think I would be able to do because of the fast on the spot life and death action necessary. ER and Trauma/Burn are pretty much out for me. But thats OK. A lot of nurses couldn't handle doing what I do either for their own reasons. We are all suited to certain things.

Having mental illness doesn't automatically make you unsuited for the nursing profession. Even though I have heard many times, "what are you doing here?" "Shouldn't you be doing something else, less stressful?"

I am here and am doing the thing I am suited for. Yes sometimes I have to take time off due to my illness, but its no different than somone who has flare ups of a chronic physical illness like lupus, chronic fatigue, or fibromyalgia.

I would like to know how other nurses have coped with their own illness and their nursing careers.

Severina

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it seems somewhat comforting to see that other nurses are dealing w/ bipolar and other mental illnessess. although i would never say its a good thing to have a mental illness, it makes me feel better to know that i am not the only one. i am still in school and the idea of having a "breakdown" in school or on the job is terrifying. :o i take my meds and i am going to therapy but even now i am having problems b/c my meds don't seem to be working for me anymore and i am going through the struggle of getting it right. :crying2:

kristy

The ole "fear of fear" - I know it well and it cripples me sometimes. I've been out of work it will be 2 years in October, I am getting ready to start part time work at a grocery story (even THAT seems real scary!)

You gotta ask yourself, what is the worst that can happen (from the sounds of it, to you the "worst' would be losing it in front of people at school or work. So if it did happen, what is the worst that would happen? You'd be laughed at (probably not) kicked out of school (probably not) embarrassed (probably: make sure there is a true blue friend at work or school who KNOWS, so you know there is at least ONE friendly face). Anyway if any of those worst things happen, you won't be any worse off than you are right now, today, right? And you could handle that. Besides, you have US here to talk to when things are tough!

One of my dreams was to have a sober house for women. I was fairly healthy then. well I got it going and darned if the women didn't walk all over me. Did I lose it? A bit. Was I sorry I had tried it? Not ONE tiny bit, cuz I would always have kicked myself for not trying! I feel GOOD that I dared to do it. And I feel GOOD that I didn't buy a whole house and everything in order to try it! It is just an unpleasant memory that I am strangely proud of :)

Take care!

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I work full time in a nursing home and love working again. It is such a boost. My employer knows I have depression but as for the rest I will not tell them unless I begin to have problems. I think that nurses who have struggled with mental illness can feel more empathy and not get so irritated by some of the behaviors patients can show.:nurse:

Oh honey you give me HOPE! This is just tremendous - you are who you are and you have a right to work and to be happy - WHOOOO! you go, woman!

Oh Dinkymouse, That is what I am going to do. I am going to get my master's degree and work as a psychiatric nurse practitioner in a long time care facility. I will have so much empathy for those patients, and I will review my med surg skills and learning as i go. Krisssy

boy this thread sounds familiar, I'm a student nurse, first semester, just about to start clinicals and I've suffered from a panic attack disorder with depression for ages and I unfortunately that was disclosed on my health form and I had the foolish gumption to discuss it with my clinical professor who now tells me he doesn't know if he "trusts me" around the patients. I've spent the last 2 years in school and I'm now in debt huge on loans working towards an RN and now this.

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boy this thread sounds familiar, I'm a student nurse, first semester, just about to start clinicals and I've suffered from a panic attack disorder with depression for ages and I unfortunately that was disclosed on my health form and I had the foolish gumption to discuss it with my clinical professor who now tells me he doesn't know if he "trusts me" around the patients. I've spent the last 2 years in school and I'm now in debt huge on loans working towards an RN and now this.

You may want to speak with your disability center (ADA or something along that line) to see what your rights are, rather than wait for the axe to fall. You should be able to have a note from a doc that eases this guy's mind. Sorry you are going through this!

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thought id stick my hea din say hello and see who is new and who remembers me :)

hows things going folks?

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thought id stick my hea din say hello and see who is new and who remembers me :)

hows things going folks?

Hello catz, are you the catz I remember from the depression thread some time ago? There are a LOT OF CAT PEOPLE round here, did ya notice?

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good for you, it's so tough get through those kinds of ordeals w/o meds. a portion of it has to do with will to succeed at any cost. the rest has to do with luck and staying present i think....maybe one crisis at a time.

Hello

I am new at this I wanted to ask about panic attacks.I have been a nurse for 3 years now. I had my first attack about year ago I thought I was going out of my mind. That passed, now I am having them again. I question everything I do as a nurse, to the point it makes me sick. Even if I do every thing right as far as nursing skills, this anxity :scrying: is driving me to no sleep I am so nervous all the time. I know patients can sense this. I have just quit my job after three days of panic about everything. Any suggestions I am desperate and about ready to give up on nursing

you have to get to the root of what's bothering you. something is driving the panic. it seems to me that everyone needs at least two or three parts of their life to be working...in order to have the drive and will to battle one part that's not working.

get into counseling as soon as possible. get it out in the open and start dealing with it. face it down and walk through it, whatever it takes.

everyone has "something" that doesn't work. maybe it's a body part or process or a general illness. it's not the focusing on what doesn't work as much as it is the focusing on what does... and continuing to make the train go!

don't give up, ever.

what part of england do you live in ? i spent six months there last year.

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I shared these same problems. I quit my first job due to what was in my opinion a lack of orientation. Well it truly was! But due to that I felt extremely incompetent and felt that others saw me that way as well. It wrecks havoc on the already fragile mindset that we have. But the key is, to do your best to believe in yourself and once you do others will as well.

I would also advise reading a few books ESPECIALLY 'Your 1st year as a nurse by Donna Cardillo. It has alot of excellent suggestions. Ones that can actually be put to use on this forum. Such as, start a journal. Journal your good days AND bad days. By writing your thoughts, your experiences your fears and your accomplishments everyday you will see how you grow as a nurse.

You will be fine. I actually only journaled for about 3 - 4 weeks and I feel much MUCH more competent as a nurse because I have seen the effects on peoples lives that I have had the benefit of being a part of.

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