Nurses struggling with mental illness

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I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major co-morbid mental illness, Major depression/PTSD/DID, and have had many problems in my career. I have been in therapy and on meds for a long time and have worked very hard to be functional, and I have suprised myself by what I have been able to achieve. Currently, I am a hospice nurse in a residential setting and it seems that I have found my niche. It doesn't aggravate my illness too much. I am very busy at times and most of my job revolves in much cognitive thinking and decision making about the best ways to respond to a patient's emerging or existing symptoms, and in assessing patients to see where they are in the dying process, plus lots of educating to patients and families. My extensive personal trauma background has made me able to have a different perspective on death and don't see it as the scary thing that is SO SAD, that a lot of people do. Plus, because of the things that I have been through, I am more able to be compassionate and understanding of patients and their fears. I especially do well with patients with existing mental illness or lots of anxiety. I notice that a lot of nurses have little tolerance for a patients anxiety and are not willing to take the extra time to walk them through things and provide the extra reassurance that they need.

Yes, there are some nursing jobs that I don't think I would be able to do because of the fast on the spot life and death action necessary. ER and Trauma/Burn are pretty much out for me. But thats OK. A lot of nurses couldn't handle doing what I do either for their own reasons. We are all suited to certain things.

Having mental illness doesn't automatically make you unsuited for the nursing profession. Even though I have heard many times, "what are you doing here?" "Shouldn't you be doing something else, less stressful?"

I am here and am doing the thing I am suited for. Yes sometimes I have to take time off due to my illness, but its no different than somone who has flare ups of a chronic physical illness like lupus, chronic fatigue, or fibromyalgia.

I would like to know how other nurses have coped with their own illness and their nursing careers.

Severina

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Hi,

Thank you all for posting. For years I have had ups and downs with generalized anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia. The last couple of years the panic attacks and agoraphobia have worsened to the point were I had to take a 12 month LOA from work. The psych MD said "Oh it is just menopause making your sx. worse"

I am actively looking for any home-based nursing opportunities and would appreciate any employment resources/tips, etc.

Thank you,

Sharon in Sacramento, CA:)

Yeah I've gotten the menopause clause before too, LOL! Can't treat you right? Oh it must be menopause, LOL!

Yeah the at home sounds about right for me!

Good luck with your future endeavors!

Hi there.

You ever tried being a councillor?

If you go to school and just take MA in psychology you can be a councillor and council sick people or people that are addicted to drugs or are alcoholic!

http://aolsearch.aol.com/aol/search?query=MA%20In%20Psychology%20Online%20School

Good luck!

Kathy

Hey zoeboboey, GUMs are the "general undiagnosed masses".

Haa haa haa. GUMs. I love it.

Severina

I have been a nurse for twenty years and have worked full time for both decades. I also live with DID/PTSD, dyslexia, and depression. It has not been easy by a long shot. (((can you say amen?? :uhoh3: )))

Wow, 20 yrs! How long have you known about your DID? How have you coped with work/being a nurse as a multiple?

Severina

Severina,

I know what you mean. I have ADHD which I was shocked to find out as I think of myself as very calm and laid back, at least for the most part. I also have some minimal depression . I most likely have PTSD also but have not even tried to get therapy as I am just finishing up with my RN, about 10 more weeks to go.

I do not think the medical field has much compassion or tolerance for staff with any disorders. I have had to speak up for myself and I know I am looked upon as not being that smart. In truth I am very intelligent but just put up with the stigma of the diagnosis. In time everyone will see.

I was employed as a Nutritionist for 15 years. and had an excellent reputation and a lot of good skils, the patients and the docs were all pleased.

My problmes are accelerated now because I have to sit so much which is a killer for me. I do much better on the go, nursing shoud be good for me.

I understand where you are coming from.

I have been through it all. The death of my 2 young kids, the death of my 2 and only sisters, the terrible physical abuse of a spouse, and emothional abuse of one parent and one other husband. So I will admit I have a unusual outlook on things also after springing back from all of that.

I get condescending statements from my instructors all the time about things that don't matter. Like: why do I always have to "write"; why do I carry my books with me to clinic; why was I late giving a dying man his bath when his granddaughter drove in from another city to see him, possibly for the last time...he got all the important treatment...meds, etc.;why do I write so much information about my patients (if you don't you do not get to do it again...you fail and you are kicked out!); and comments about being "different".

It never interfered with me doing an awesome job in my field before and probably won't again. I am glad I am different if that is what they want to call it. I call it experienced, empathetic, and practical. A bath is second to a last and emotional visit from a grandaughter...It is written in my final evaluation and I almost did not make the last semester because of that bath. I cannot believe it! You cannot think or make decisions on your own I guess if you are a student?! I know where you are coming from about the death issue. We don't have a set amount of years we are to live. You never know. Death is peace, illness often is not. It is not an accepted view in the USA but more in Europe. I found my niche before and I hope I will again before someone kills me with thier negative outlook.

Hang in there. Sometimes you have to just know...and keep it to yourself. You cannot change certain things and other reactions is one of those items you cannot control, but you can control your own thoughts and actions. I bet you are an awesome Hospice nurse. I would rather have someone like you during my final hours.

Again, Hang in there, don't expect too much from the other professionals. If you learn "ouside the box" and think the same way, things can be a little difficult but you will be an asset to yourself and then to others.icon12.gif

Hang in there. Clinical instructors are notorious for making nursing students walk on egg shells, and be unnerved. They try to "weed out" those who can't take the pressure. The real world is much different.

Have you thought about going into hospice? You sure do have the right philosophy and outlook. Your priorities are good.

Severina

Hi,

Thank you all for posting. For years I have had ups and downs with generalized anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia. The last couple of years the panic attacks and agoraphobia have worsened to the point were I had to take a 12 month LOA from work. The psych MD said "Oh it is just menopause making your sx. worse"

I am actively looking for any home-based nursing opportunities and would appreciate any employment resources/tips, etc.

Thank you,

Sharon in Sacramento, CA:)

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So, can menopause make psych symptoms worse??? Great, I have that to look foward to. I'm 37 and starting to think about 'THE CHANGE'.

Severina

Last time I looked definitely a boy:D

it was the others (the other male helo/fire&rescue crew) who had the PE cos I was also the most photogenic !!!!

I'm from africa....as in,where men are men and women are glad LoL

Nows that the manic side.........:rotfl:

But yes I think that there are depressive BPMD and manic BPMD people and by and large I fall into the manic side -which can be well "hidden" in EMS/ER setting........so when I feel that black dog of depression at the door I'm very aware of it and start my 'taking-care-of-myself' program.........and in truth I've always been able to get help if very low....its my smart manic mouth and sometimes total disregard for my safety thats causes problems in my life.......but I figure its the only life I have.................as my local chaplain says,the longest queue in heaven is going to be at the "ASK WHY? here" desk.

Wow. You have awesome coping skills, and I can tell, a fighting personality who is determined to 'make it'.

A flight nurse! the green berets of nursing. *bows in obeisance*

Severina

I have severe depression that seems to come on go, along with panic attacks and severe anxiety. How I dealt with this? I turned to drugs, the easy way out...right. I have put 4 years of school and my family in jeopardy. I am currently on medication which i am taking correctly, attending AA and NA. I hope this experience will help me be a better nurse. I have always worked in med surg but I am thinking of working in a rehab facility. I just want to help others that have been thru what I have and show them there is a way out. I have made some horrible mistakes but I consider it more of a stumble not a fall. Nursing is my calling, I just have to decide what area I can best help people in.

Michaela

Michaela, good for you! Hang on and do try to find that position which you would do so well. Rehab could use more nurses who empathise.

Keep your chin up. Better days are around the corner.

Hi there.

You ever tried being a councillor?

If you go to school and just take MA in psychology you can be a councillor and council sick people or people that are addicted to drugs or are alcoholic!

http://aolsearch.aol.com/aol/search?query=MA%20In%20Psychology%20Online%20School

Good luck!

Kathy

I was just talking to my doctor last night about my future plans. I think when I go back to work I'll try some rehab or psychiatric hospitals. I love med surg but until I'm further along in my recovery I think I need to stay away from all the narcotics, maybe forever but I sure hope not. I miss working so bad but I've got to get my life cleaned up first and make sure I can stay clean. Thanks for the adivce.

Michaela

Specializes in med/surg, new FNP.

I suffer from panic attacks, anxiety, and social anxiety disorder. I have toughed things out so far- i graduate in may- This past wednesday in clinicals I had a panic attck. My instructor had me write a plan of care on myself to prevent it from happening again. When I went for my evaluation yesterday she said that when she discussed this with the other instructors they all said i should be kicked out of the program "given the boot were her words", she gave me unsatisfactory for the past 6 weeks and wrote that I had a flat affect and was disinterested in learning" which i disagree with. She wrote if anything like this happens again it will result in clinical failure. What do I do? I will put my best foot forward this next 6 weeks of course but since they are all talking about it I feel they are waiting for me to mess up. I am under disabilities services through the state and I have emailed my counselor to get her input. I have never had any problems before, grades are fine and this one situation has gotten me into all kinds of stuff. I am so stressed about this. I am so close to graduating. In high school I had to home school the past 2 years so I have come so far. They act like this is something that I am doing on purpose or just not exercising" emotional control", Any input would be so appreciated.

Oh and when I had the panic attack in clinicals I was supposed to do a blood culture which I had not seen done before so I let another student do it becuase I was upset. Becuase of this she said I put my patient in danger which is what I was trying not to do by letting the other student do it until I had calmed down.

Alisha,

When I hear crap like this it makes me so doggone angry that I'm speechless. :angryfire :angryfire To flunk a person because of a panic attack especially since up till then you had been passing. Contact the Dean of Student Services ASAP as well as the Dean of Instruction at your school. Explain to them calmy what has happened. Do not make threats but state facts. If you need to, also contact your state's Protection and Advocacy System, Inc. Every state has an office and they will help protect your rights from discrimination. Until those of us with mental illness start sticking up for ourselves we will continue to be stomped on in situations like this. :angryfire

Fuzzy

I took the liberty of looking up the websites for you:

http://www.napas.org National Association of Protection and Advocacy Systems

http://www.arkdisabilityrights.org Arkansas Protection and Advocacy

Specializes in Clinical Research, Outpt Women's Health.

Dear Alisha,

Prove them wrong - that would really put them in their place. I am so proud of you. You have come such a long way and made it this far. Do not let those jerks win. Just repeat to yourself that you can do whatever you have to do to graduate and then you will never have to deal with them again (we had those types in my school many years ago also). Best of luck to you - I am sure you are going to be a wonderful nurse.

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