Nurses struggling with mental illness

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I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major co-morbid mental illness, Major depression/PTSD/DID, and have had many problems in my career. I have been in therapy and on meds for a long time and have worked very hard to be functional, and I have suprised myself by what I have been able to achieve. Currently, I am a hospice nurse in a residential setting and it seems that I have found my niche. It doesn't aggravate my illness too much. I am very busy at times and most of my job revolves in much cognitive thinking and decision making about the best ways to respond to a patient's emerging or existing symptoms, and in assessing patients to see where they are in the dying process, plus lots of educating to patients and families. My extensive personal trauma background has made me able to have a different perspective on death and don't see it as the scary thing that is SO SAD, that a lot of people do. Plus, because of the things that I have been through, I am more able to be compassionate and understanding of patients and their fears. I especially do well with patients with existing mental illness or lots of anxiety. I notice that a lot of nurses have little tolerance for a patients anxiety and are not willing to take the extra time to walk them through things and provide the extra reassurance that they need.

Yes, there are some nursing jobs that I don't think I would be able to do because of the fast on the spot life and death action necessary. ER and Trauma/Burn are pretty much out for me. But thats OK. A lot of nurses couldn't handle doing what I do either for their own reasons. We are all suited to certain things.

Having mental illness doesn't automatically make you unsuited for the nursing profession. Even though I have heard many times, "what are you doing here?" "Shouldn't you be doing something else, less stressful?"

I am here and am doing the thing I am suited for. Yes sometimes I have to take time off due to my illness, but its no different than somone who has flare ups of a chronic physical illness like lupus, chronic fatigue, or fibromyalgia.

I would like to know how other nurses have coped with their own illness and their nursing careers.

Severina

Alisha

I am just insensed by this as well :angryfire . Fuzzy has it right - don't let them get away with this. You have come so far. Don't let these cretins keep you from your dream. We are in your corner!

Alisha,

So sorry to hear about that....not about the panic attack (it happens), but about the ridiculous treatment you are receiving from people who are supposed to be educated NURSES. Without knowing the details, it's hard to say if you were in any violation..i.e., not on a med when you should be, or failure to declare a history of panic disorder if required by your school, etc.

It certainly does NOT sound like you put anyone's "life in

danger"....sheesh...poor thing, I know you must've felt that your life was in danger during the attack, and now it seems that you are under attack personally by your school. Please seek legal counsel, this is a form of discrimination....also, please see someone for treatment (therapy, prescription meds, etc.) so that you won't have to worry about having another attack that is so bad it interferes with your life.

Good luck,

ICUSleep :) ...panicker for almost 10 years now, but living my life and doing well with clinicals for the most part...help is available for us.:)

Specializes in med/surg, new FNP.

Thank you all so much. I needed to hear that I am not crazy so badly to feel irked by this situation. You have no idea how much I appreciate the support.

Alisha, please don't let them do this to you. Have you also tried the Access Program representative in your school? They work under a federal law that requires equal access- and reasonable accommodations- for everyone who has a disability.

Please update us on your progress.

I am a CNA student who is now going to fail the class which would make me on my way to my nursing career because of a depressive episode. I have been out of work since like Feb 03 and been going to school since last summer working on my gen ed classes before i go into the nursing program. I started the CNA class this semester and because of this depressive episode I have missed 2 weeks fo class and now will fail the class because I do not feel safe around the pts with my hallucinations and the change in my meds. I know what it feels like to be in a constant depression and be scared of the possiblities. I am scared that I am not going to be able to hack it as a nursing student even though I am VERY medicated and in therapy. :crying2:

Hi, notsure

Maybe this is not the time to start your nursing career. It sounds like it's time to take the best possible care of yourself.

Your safety and that of your patients, this is what you will be protecting.

Maybe nursing is a goal you can keep close to your heart and try again later on when the hallucinations are all gone, and you have the meds combination that help keep you well and stable.

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
I was just talking to my doctor last night about my future plans. I think when I go back to work I'll try some rehab or psychiatric hospitals. I love med surg but until I'm further along in my recovery I think I need to stay away from all the narcotics, maybe forever but I sure hope not. I miss working so bad but I've got to get my life cleaned up first and make sure I can stay clean. Thanks for the adivce.

Michaela

Michaela, you've got that 100% right! Sobriety must come first even if it means postponing what you would prefer to do.

Feel free to private message me if you need a shoulder, I'm very familiar with recovery!

God bless

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
My instructor had me write a plan of care on myself to prevent it from happening again.

I think that is FANTASTIC!

When I went for my evaluation yesterday she said that when she discussed this with the other instructors they all said i should be kicked out of the program "given the boot were her words",

I think this sucks out loud!

I am under disabilities services through the state and I have emailed my counselor to get her input.

This is AWESOME!

Oh and when I had the panic attack in clinicals I was supposed to do a blood culture which I had not seen done before so I let another student do it becuase I was upset. Becuase of this she said I put my patient in danger which is what I was trying not to do by letting the other student do it until I had calmed down.

What you did here was exercise good nursing judgement! This is what a prudent RN in the same situation would do!

Sheesh! are they afraid it's gonna rub OFF or something?

Hang in there hon, and use those disability resources, they are discriminating BIG TIME!

Hi,

I wanted to pass along an informative and helpful website for nurses with disabilities that I found. It is called www.exceptionalnurse.com

Sincerely,

Sharon in Sacramento

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
Hi,

I wanted to pass along an informative and helpful website for nurses with disabilities that I found. It is called www.exceptionalnurse.com

Sincerely,

Sharon in Sacramento

Hey that sounds good! Thanks!

It's really sad :crying2: , but nice to hear others talk about having a mental illness and being a nurse. I'll never forget some of the things that were said to me while I was in school WORKING on my depression and recovery from an eating disorder (I always made sure I was safe to work with my pts.).It's hard right now because I'm having some trouble (especially since I moved far away from everything/everyone I know), I know I need support, but I felt as though nurses should be "perfect," therefore I fear even telling one person. I guess reading this really helped make me feel better about being... ME. Thanks everyone! :)

Specializes in NICU.
It's really sad :crying2: , but nice to hear others talk about having a mental illness and being a nurse. I'll never forget some of the things that were said to me while I was in school WORKING on my depression and recovery from an eating disorder (I always made sure I was safe to work with my pts.).It's hard right now because I'm having some trouble (especially since I moved far away from everything/everyone I know), I know I need support, but I felt as though nurses should be "perfect," therefore I fear even telling one person. I guess reading this really helped make me feel better about being... ME. Thanks everyone! :)

Smile, feel free to PM me anytime, re the ED issue. I've gone through/am going through something similar

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