Before becoming an RN, I was debating MD vs. PA vs. RN and eventually get my masters degree. I decided to go the RN route because at the time, nursing seemed like it had a lot of opportunities and it is a highly respected and flexible field. 8 or so months after working as an RN, I jumped the gun and joined on an online NP Program for FNP. Just two years later, I am realizing what a mistake that was.
The first year I was so busy with fluff assignments and truly just doing my best while also gaining nursing experience (I have worked full time through most of the program, just went down to part time a few months ago). I did not realize the lack of depth I was receiving and what they weren't teaching me. The past few months, I have realized how insufficient NP education is (not sure how it took me this long to wake up, I guess just not having time to think about it because I was still busting my butt with the readings). Nonetheless, this has put me into a mental spiral if this is what I even want to do now. I've taken it upon myself to basically do the bare minimum for the fluff work and spend extra time on patho, pharm, sciences, etc. and do med school style questions (using Osmosis, Human Dx, anki flash cards). I'm a pretty good self-learner and I know my limitations and what I am weak on. But I feel like I am just in too deep and there's too much to learn out there. I'm around 8 months from graduating, starting OB and peds clinical next semester and at this point I'd feel it idiotic not to just finish.
But how ridiculous would it be to go to med school after I graduate? I am burning to really, really, learn the details on medicine in a proper fashion. Ideally, I'd love to find a great doc to work with who will know my limitations, be willing to teach me and utilize me as his/her extender of care, but I know that isn't always promised and I don't want to end up working without physician supervision and see cases I was never taught in NP school. But I also am like, why the hell didn't I realize this a year ago and just quit the program then? I think I was just so excited to become a provider.
I'm 26 years old. I know if I did do med school I'd be in a hell of a lot of debt and pretty poor for awhile, and I do want to have a family with my fiance, so that would definitely take the back burner. I also know it will be extremely difficult from the application process to residency. He also is applying to med schools now. Any advice or anything would be appreciated. I already know what I did was a mistake, so no need for lectures.