Not coping

I think it is normal to be a bit anxious about a new job but it sounds like you are way beyond that point. I think maybe this job isn't the right fit for you. Have you considered transferring to a less stressful specialty? The ICU is of course very high acuity and so maybe that added pressure is what is getting to you. I wouldn't completely throw in the towel and call it quits on nursing yet. Just try switching gears and see if med-surg or OB or a clinic or nursing home is more your style. There are so any options out there. I hope you find one you like. Nobody should dread going in to work as much as you do. Good luck to you!

I hope you wont give up right away. Im a new nurse too. Things that are new and at a fast pace can be frightening and may leave us feeling inadequate and certainly overwhelmed. Everyone has had to start from scratch. Give yourself some time. Im sure you will be a very good nurse. This is something that youve worked so hard for.

Many times Ive felt like crying, not going to work ...all of that and more. I found myself praying before each shift and during my shift. It is inner strength that we need more than anything. Youve learned the skills, now to apply them. This website is a good place to vent and for support.

Hang in there, Im positive you will get into the swing of things. It will just take time as it did for everyone else. Im rooting for you!

It sounds like you are going through the normal first year of nursing blues. I wanted to quit my job every day of the first 6 months I worked. It got better a little bit at a time. I am finishing up my second year of nursing and I can't believe how far I have come. When I go to work, no assignment scares me. I am still horrible at starting IVs, but I'm really good at some other things.

Evaluate if it is your job, or just the first year of nursing blues. I promise if you stick it out, things will start to come together for you. It may take 5-6 months for that to happen, but it will happen.

jenne, I feel the same way. I've even been an LPN for several years and for some reason ( for me it's my preceptors & new management ) I can't seem to find where my confidence has gone. I lost it somewhere between the transition from nights ot days. Anyhow, I've seen lots of new RNs over the years and can only say, it gets better, not today, not tomorrow, but soon. Hang in there.

Jenne,

You are not alone. I repeat, you are NOT ALONE!

There is a very good reason that they say the first year is the hardest. On my way to work, I used to get butterflies in my stomach so badly that I felt I could vomit at any second. I cried in the bathroom countless times, splashing a little cold water on my face, taking a deep breath, and bracing myself before coming out and facing the rest of my shift. Somehow, I got through it, and you will too. You can always come here to vent and to find support.

I am a new grad almost done with orientation, somedays I feel like I can handle it and other days I feel completely unprepared. ICU is tough to start off with, I really wanted ICU but decided to do med/surg first after talking to people that went right to critical care.

Don't be afraid to let people know how you feel, it's o.k. to be scared, but be honest and talk to those with experience maybe they have suggestions that can help you.

I'll keep you in my prayers.