For background I am a new grad, as in haven't yet written the NCLEX, but I am working as a new grad RN. I am just off orientation one shift in and I already feel as though I can't do it anymore. My coworkers are nice enough, but I feel like I am having trouble connecting with them partly due to me being intimidated, and also major social anxiety. Aside from that I have the typical new grad issues of being insecure, unsure, and generally hopeless about ever being able to do this job well. I feel so incompetent at times that I wonder how I ever got through nursing school in the first place. So far I haven't made any errors (that I know of) but it is all becoming too much to handle. I am currently feeling guilty over calling in sick for my second day of being on my own, as I was having major anxiety the night before and couldn't get a blink of sleep in. I know that being extremely fatigued isn't safe for coming to work, but I feel as though my co-workers will judge me for not coming in. On my days off I feel so fatigued and *** that I can't get out of bed till the afternoon. Maybe its the shift work that is messing up my sleep schedule, but no matter how many alarms I set I can't bring myself to get up and have a productive day off. I don't really know what I'm asking, but maybe just looking for reassurance that I'll eventually get to the point where I feel like I can do this job, and enjoy it. I feel the urge to quit often, but I don't have any other options or anything else I can do, and I can't tell if I want to quit due to the job itself or other reasons. I hope this will pass.
Hi all,
For background I am a new grad, as in haven't yet written the NCLEX, but I am working as a new grad RN. I am just off orientation one shift in and I already feel as though I can't do it anymore. My coworkers are nice enough, but I feel like I am having trouble connecting with them partly due to me being intimidated, and also major social anxiety. Aside from that I have the typical new grad issues of being insecure, unsure, and generally hopeless about ever being able to do this job well. I feel so incompetent at times that I wonder how I ever got through nursing school in the first place. So far I haven't made any errors (that I know of) but it is all becoming too much to handle. I am currently feeling guilty over calling in sick for my second day of being on my own, as I was having major anxiety the night before and couldn't get a blink of sleep in. I know that being extremely fatigued isn't safe for coming to work, but I feel as though my co-workers will judge me for not coming in. On my days off I feel so fatigued and *** that I can't get out of bed till the afternoon. Maybe its the shift work that is messing up my sleep schedule, but no matter how many alarms I set I can't bring myself to get up and have a productive day off. I don't really know what I'm asking, but maybe just looking for reassurance that I'll eventually get to the point where I feel like I can do this job, and enjoy it. I feel the urge to quit often, but I don't have any other options or anything else I can do, and I can't tell if I want to quit due to the job itself or other reasons. I hope this will pass.