My Story

[Dreamer528]

Hello everyone

I am very excited to be part of this amazing site that has given me hope...

Well I don't know when that nursing seed started growing in my heart. But in high school I was in a health academy where we focused on medical terminology and all that good stuff..and became very involved. anyhow I graduated and went off to a great private nursing school. I was so happy and proud of myself ... my first semester in college I took 17 units. (anatomy, microbiology, English, psychology, speech and intro into college studies) I didn't have any say on what classes I wanted to take but I was up for the challenge...

So long story short, I got B+,B,B,A, and 2 D...and yes ofcourse I got the Ds in anatomy and microbiology. I don't know when things started to go downhill...I believe it was after my first major Anatomy exam where I thought I prepared myself very well. I knew every bone in my body and was ready to go! I tend to exaggerate and make each thing that happens to me the end of the world and my head starts going off in a million directions .... if I don't pass this exam.. I wont pass my class ..I will not be able to graduate from college, I will not own that nice house I wanted ..I WILL BE A FAILURE...So my anxiety got the best of me and I ended up getting a B lab and C in lecture. I was so disappointed...I had studied so hard... soon I felt I was in hell...

I had the worst of luck! I had the roommate from hell who thought I was invisible or something ... and so much more...I wasn't happy.

So the two D's meant I couldn't go on to the nursing program. GREAT! More bad news... so I took less units second semester and did a lot better. But now I have to transfer out of that college ... and since other schools require other pre-requisites in addition to the ones I took. ..i will be spending a year taking those classes and waiting until next year because nursing programs begin every fall...

So here I am drowning in despair because two miserable D's have cost me a year. I could be starting clinicals this fall.... Sigh...I feel so disappointed in myself and I have let down my parents who mean the world to me. I know in my heart this is not the end of the world but it feels like it...

I will be enrolling at a state school in January and hopefully get into their nursing program fall 2006...

I want to believe that things happen for a reason..i wish I could know why...???? Why??? Why????????????????????????? BUT I have to move on and let go of the past ...hopefully this experience will give me something special ... I read a post at the begining of the year and it inspired me tremendously ... here it is...

"..."This is a situation you can turn into a positive experience. You will care for patients who have had the world turned upside down, who have lost abilities and faith in themselves. You will be able to offer something very special to those patients, a particular sense of understanding that comes only from having had hopes denied. Overcoming this tremendous disappointment will enable you to speak with authenticity in helping your patients back to a state of wellness."

[Fun2, BSN, RN]

Do not let the past determine your future, but change the present to mold your future.

Make up your mind that you can do it. Study more, take less classes at a time, whatever you have to do to make it.

I made a D in A&P 13 years ago as well. I just took it in the spring and passed it with 101 %. I set curves for the first time in my life, probably. I decided to change the present to mold my future.

I was not going to let the past determine my future.

I took A&P 2 for the first time in a 5 week class and also passed with an A. It's doable, but hard. You have to be willing to give up the time to study.

Good luck to you, always remember the first two lines of this post, as well as my signature below! :)

[TashaLPN2006RN2012, ASN, RN]

YOU CAN DO IT!

Hey i started college in 99 went for a year, got married, got divorced, when back to school in 03-04, got re-married, moved to texas from ohio, had a baby, and while pregnant was trying to get BACK into school which i couldn't get accepted here cause of all my preivious BAD grades, and am finally starting LPN school in Jan of 06, WHILE my husband is deployed to a war zone for a year to a year and half! If i can manage anyone can manage! i think if you REALLY want something no matter what "bad" stuff gets throw at you will CAN DO IT!

i've had so much financial stuff come up, and my student loans would hardly pay for anything, and now i got the pell grant, i got my loans, and a scholarship, so obviously it wasn't the right time before for me to get my nursing education and now that i've had a few years of bad luck it's time for good luck and hard work =)

so keep doing what you are doing and come fall of this year we can lean on each other as i will be a nursing student and so shall you!

good luck!

[RosesrReder, BSN, MSN, RN]

I know you can do it. Just keep the motivation on high. Good luck. :)